Today is a pretty busy day for me... I am sort of having stomach cramps...

This morning, I had to go to school early as I am taking part as the usher for the graduation ceremony. It was really a nice day to sleep... Seeing the rain today made me feel a bit disgusted and uncomfortable. Anyways I rushed to go to school as Doris Chan sent us a last minute message at 5am that we are suppose to meet earlier. I even took the express bus which is more expensive... But anyways good thing I was not late!!!



We had to wear this really formal blazer during the graduation. My blazer was super big and made me look like a clown. Overall this ushering thing is ok lah... I dun really enjoy it, but then again I think its a form of experience for me... so it might not be too bad after all... Just that in the beginning I was not really to sure what to do. But after that I got the hang of it. I also think these kind of occasions is a good chance to make new friends.



Seeing all our senior graduate, I feel very reluctant to think about my future. About what I will become off... The beginning is always the toughest and has always been the case for me... Sometimes I can be slower than other ppl... But once i pick up I think I can do it and sometimes better than other ppl... cause i do it wholeheartedly. What I am very scared of is the beginning... Will I have enough will power to overcome it. The 3 years of study are not for nothing.



Anyways the graduation ceremony is pretty boring to tell the truth. But sometimes I think my strength is i like to interact with ppl , so i will try to build up on my strength. There were lots of speeches by impt. ppl and everyone went to the stage to get their certificates. After that the lot of us as ushers took some photos. Lunch was provided, nothing much to say about that just that it is not as nice as i expected.



I am a bit upset. My food trail group has not met up or done anything. Actually i have also done nil research on it. There has just been so many other things to occupy my time with. I was already a bit upset to be in this group but just now they called me over and asked me to be the group leader. Reason cause that person is clueless bout what is happening so she does not want to do it... Hello!!!! She is suppose to be the food trail guide. None of the 2 food trail guide in my group have gone out but they are suppose to know more than me right. Its either her or the other one , but the other one is so yaya papaya... Its just like putting the load of burden on someone else's back... That is just soooo "nice" of them... i told them a straight NO in their face. I am already the leader of 2 other projects. What do you take me for. Someone you can push her and there at your beck and call... They tried to convince me again, but i told them NO NO No... I dun want to do it! I have worked with them during the leadership project and I am still very upset about what happened then. When things are ok, its good. When things go wrong you look for the one in charge!!! And the previous time they forgot I am not in charge. I am only a member that happend to do more and in the end they push everything to me...




I am not as noble as I look and am not as easily convinced as I seem... I dun want to be nice to them!!! I hate it..!!! Is it because they think I am very easy to bully. Well I won't give them what they want. For normal things I can close one eye... but I hate ppl to take advantage of me just because they think I am soft and wun reject their requests. The reason why I dislike being the leader is because sometimes (but depends on the ppl you working with) I have the feeling I am doing most of the work. Maybe I just dun have the qualities of one... maybe ... maybe... haiz... I dun want to think so much... Btw... Bloggie. i feel better now after writing it out. I can get on with life now. THANK YOU... ARIGATOU!!!