Today i failed my practical exam. I think it came a shock to most ppl and to myself too... Not that I thought i would do very well.. But I had roughly practiced quite a few times b4 (especially on scrubbing). What do I have to say... I can't exactly say I am that upset. B4 the test I just prayed that God will give me the marks that I deserve. I dun regret not praying for a pass... If I could turn back time maybe I could change that mistake I made but time does not wait for us. What do ppl want me to do... Wallow in self pity? Maybe i did for a while. I mean some ppl fail and they start to blame everyone else except themselves. I think when the occasion arises we just have to look at ourselves and see whether the problme itself lies in us. Though it is inevitable a part of me is upset, but i like someone who tells me my mistakes , no matter how small they are. My assessor was quite particular. But I did learn a bit within the short time I was with her.




There is one lecturer I used to dislike with all my heart cause she failed my assessment when i was in yr 1, but now when i think back i have no reason to hate her. Although she is strict and has a sharp tongue, but those mistakes that she pointed out were really there. I am ok with ppl failing me unless they are totally unreasonable. But if the problem lies with i did not do it correctly, or got nervous then during assessment then we have nothing to complain about.



I am really ok... I did not even have the time to be sad or anything. After the assessment I was still smiling away. After that i rushed to do the CBL project with Chan and after that discuss my osteoporosiss project with my group. I could not let my feeling get to me cause i had a presentation later in the day... somemore it was sort of a mini role play. I think towards the afternoon time the fact started to get to me and i sorta became a bit grumpy but nevertheless I think I still put in my best shot for my project. After that i wanted to go for knitting class with Alina, but i suddenly felt so mentally, emotionally and physically tired so i skipped the lesson and went back home first. The trip home on 65, I had the most deep sleep i ever had on the bus. Nothing could wake me up. I think it must be the mental turmoil... haha...




I can' t let this small little failure get to me. In front of me are many more challenges. But thanks to all the ppl who gave me support during this period, like Chan, Jenny, Alina... I love you all!!! For you and for me, i will be strong!!!


I still think I am very blessed and God is good, I managed to find all my knitting things which i thought i lost today... Yeah! i can continue knitting!!!