The third week of school has just finished today. I thought i could get a good nice rest tomorrow but it seems i have to go back to school for extra clinical practice and after that in the evening go for my friends bbq. Work is pilling up on me. Sometimes i think i worry too much. Worry is such a useless emotion . Instead of worrying I can use the energy I have to do what is needed. Nowadays I have so many things to do that I feel I neglect those ppl around me. Projects to research on, tutorials to complete. Things I want to do in such a short period of time. Things I am thinking of whether or not to continue.



A friend in class told me she had lost her goal in life and feels depressed. Come to think of it, I dun even know what my goal in life is. I want to be a good nurse. I want to go somewhere that really needs health care or any sort of care. Thats why I dun think I will ever go to OT nursing. Its too restrictive and technical. I want to make others happy and bring a smile to their face. I want to always be a simple person. I really want to help ppl but sometimes at the same time I am scared to be too nice. Its something I learnt in sec. school that you may be nice to ppl, but ppl can just stab you in the back. Thats why sometimes I am a bit afraid to be too close to ppl. It has never been my wish to be someone of high position. But sometimes in life you want to live simply but trials and circumstances dun permit you to do so. Actually i was quite upset that I was the leader this semester. Its third yeart and I dun want to make myself so stressed over school work. I suppose I am in this position to learn something. Just hope i dun screw up!



But I am very happy that I have God in my life. I already feel very fortunate like I am in love.
I know even if no one loves me, my lord god still does! My heart feels warm and full of radiance everytime I think of this love...