Recently have been trying to read the bible everyday more diligently. Although most of the time it seems that i put worldly things in higher priority i am really trying to change. I think as a child of Christ I have sort of forsaken him. i have also forgot that he loves me and cares about me. A few days ago i read this article i read this message in the daily bread.



From beginning to End
At age 30 she was ready to give up. She wrote in her diary," My god, what will become of me? I have no desire but to die." But the dark clouds of despair gave way to light, and in time she discovered the new purpose for living. When she died at age 90, she left a mark on history. Some believe that she and those who discovered chloroform and antiseptics to medicine did more than anyone to relieve human suffering in the 19thcentury. Her name was Florence nightingale, founder of the nursing profession.

Job went so far as to wish she had never been born (3:1-3). But thank God he did not end his life. Just as Florence nightingale came out of her depression and found ways to help others, so too Job lived through his grief , and his experience has become a source of comfort to suffering souls.

Maybe you are at the point of not going on. being God's child intensifies your desperation, for you wander how a believer could feel so alone and forsaken. Don't give up. Coming to the end of yourself emotionally could be the most painful experience you've ever encountered. but take courage. Cling to the lord in faith and start all over. god can use the "beginning from the end'



Maybe as a human being we are bound to all these human emotions that either put us up or down. you question yourself why you have to try so hard in life. You may even lose all your drive and enthusiasm... i think its important to reflect on it. But certain things no matter how you reflect , it wun be solved... So I want to cling on to my faith and start all over... Some ppl think too much and become depressed and end up in IMH. They were once normal ppl like you and me but there must have been something in the past that caused them to be the way they are.


I am not really really good at expressing my feelings but who cares... This is for myself and those close to me to read...!!!