I am now listening to the song 陪我看日出（蔡淳佳）。I rememeber Jenny loves to sing this song and she always sing it to me... Haha!!! This morning I went to church and met Abigail... She scraped her knee and it was bleeding quite badly and asked me to do some first aid on her... I only gently used water and tissue to clean the wound... She almost screamed (i got to say the girl has almost no tolerance for pain). So I asked her to squeeze my arm if she wanted and she squeezed it pretty tight. But in the end she thanked me and told me I am a very good nurse... i dun really get her meaning cause she was practically screaming and squeezing my arm when i was doing the cleaning for her... haha!!!



Anyways today marks the end the end of my holidays. How do i feel... hmm... a bit sad I can say... Yesterday I was going through my event planner for the previous 2 terms and I realise I really know how to keep my schedule packed but I always have the feeling that I never did anything much... I think the problem lies with me... Like i can do more things and skip breaks during attachment but still feel really useless and i never help the patients much... Cause when i was young ppl called me stupid cause i am a slow learner. I think I must give a pat on my back. Encourage myself when i need it and praise myself generously... haha!!! This bad habit of mine: "Think too much negative things about myself" must change ok... I know you can do it Jolyn!!!




What does tomorrow hold for me... Wat will happen... who will I meet. The future is vast and blurry... But I will just hold on to my Lords hand and walk through this path... What has been done in the past cannot be undone but it is an experience and lesson learnt... And even if i am going through pain or difficulty, one day it will come to pass. Time really passes like water flowing down the stream especially when you are enjoying yourself (eg. holidays). Sometimes i really want to use my hnads to grab back all the time that has passed around me. Want to right the wrongs, but it is not possible so I cannot keep on gloating on it... i hate to say this phrase but "life is like that". I never use this phrase but when it comes to saying about time in our life its is really just like this... But I am thankful that I have spent my time fulfillingly (as in enough time for work, play and rest). Now i know how fast time just passes me I know its not the time to gloat about the lost time... it is time to press on and persevere. Even if I cry or beg it wun make the situation any better. And that is wat i want to say about ending Year 2 ... Lord, please give me strength...