I am getting more and more confused when i go for attachment. Sometimes wat they teach in school is very different from wat you see in the ward. You are really torn between the proper way and the norms of the ward. Sometimes you are borrowed from one room to another . I really want to just stay in my room and finish my work but i can't just let the other patients who are not being attended to (although they ring the call bell a long time) to continue being uncomfortable or in pain. Is this the conflict between responsibility in charge of my room and conscience to help other patients... When i was in yr 1 i did not really feel this pressure, cause i just tried to do everything within my means, but now i feel as if i must let my room be in good order, then slowly help my juniors and help them to the best of my ability. Then after my room is in order I will definsitely offer my services to help the other patients. I feel guilty suddenly disapearring from the room and letting them settle it(although I can say that i am helping other patients). I think my clincal instructor knows too. Though there is no right or wrong in this case ... Hmmm... wat to do. I think i will just go with my conscience when the occasion arises.. haha!!!




Apparently i think sometimes the hospital is a very chaotic place to work in. There is probably never a place or time we can really sit down and sometimes my body just feels achy by the end of the shift. Sometimes i just feel that my brain has to be split into a few pieces to remember all that has to be done. Cause there is always alot of things to do at the same time so must always prioritise. As yr 2 is ending I am getting more and more pressure especially from the clincal instructor. She comes to my room everyday without fail and she asks me the diagnosis of all my patients and what interventions i can do and what operation they have undergone. There is really so mush things to learn. I feel there is no ending to learning new things. Though the CI threatens to mark us down if we dun show us any initiative in learning , answering her questions or doing the skills, i am glad to say i think she is a good CI. Though at the moment i might not really like her but what she does is for our good... i hope to become a good staff nurse...




I remember one of my teachers in secondary used to tell something about giving a person a fish and it can only be fed for a day but if you teach a person how to fish it will be independent and be able to support itself. So i really thank the CI for not spoon feeding us and giving us time to grow.
Will i be beome a nurse that lets my juniors gain confidence in themselves and let them have space to grow. If so i always hope they always treat others (no matter whether patient or colleagues) as they want to be treated... I hope this concept will stay in my heart and mind even when i graduate and get caught up with all the things of the working world... I pray that my attachment will be fruitful and I will be able to learn as many things as possible... just feel i dun have much time left as a junior student... haiz...