The next few entries are the ones I wrote in my hotel room in my diary but I am just transferring everything here...



Hello, I am now in Desaru writing this. Throughout the journey this question keeps on popping in my head. AM I ANTISOCIAL??? I just find that the ppl in my church are super expressive and outgoing and enthusiastic. I guess i am too to a certain extent but i really have to see my mood and the occassion. I just feel that sometimes I am unable to fit into their circle... since most of them grew up together and are the best of friends. I still dun get it... after 3 years i still cannot connect with the ppl in the church. I really try very hard and at times it seems that i try too hard. I dun want to be someone else other than myself. Those in the same batch as me are nice and friendly but i just cant seem to click with them. Like for example just now one of the ppl I not so close was sitting next to me during dinner and we just tried talking. She is the very enthu person that tries to talk to everyone. But I have this very strong gut feeling that she actually not that interested cause when i talking to her she seems distracted and her eyes are roaming around everywhere. i know she in enthu to talk to everyone in the room but wat I want is at least some simple eye contact. I like to make friends but most importantly is they must be sincere with the time they are with me.



Anyways i really thank God for Ina. if not for her i would probably be a loner (maybe not so serious) cause i not really that close to the others in the camp, but i know can always make friends but then must see if i want to... haha!!! Anyways thats all for the complaints of the Day...