Hello... I just came back from doing a few things whch included taking a walk around bedok reservoir, buying some things from sheng shiong and ntuc and photocopying some articles... Actually i dunno whether i regret aroung bedok reservoir today... Cause these few days have really been eating alot and i need to relax and exercise. I think i set off a bit too late and by the time i was half way through bedok reservoir it was 7.25 already... the sky was turning quite dark already and there was no soul in sight... it was just sooo quiet... and its impossible to turn back unless i swim across the reservoir... haha. I was literally running in the darkness... and its not a very nice feeling to run all alone with the wind blowing against my face and the whistling of trees... you tend to start imagining things... haha... i did ... and there was one point of time i thought i saw a man fishing in bedok reservoir, then i ran past him but when i turned around i could not see anything... hmmm... must be my eyes playing tricks on me... I starting singing any hymn i could think off... It sort of made me feel better... I know my hands is safe in the lord... haha or am i just trying to console myself. I dunno wats with me today... i seem to sweat alot... maybe its because today i drank exceptionally more liquids. My sweat glands are working profusely like a tap... haha... Those who work with me during attachment all know i sweat like no ones business. And another not soo good thing that happened was that as i was trying to run fasted i fell over a rock and sprained my ankle again... haiz...

At one moment i was touching my hair and i suddenly felt something. That "thing" crawled onto my hand... And i almost got a shock of my life... it felt like a spider... it was only when i was in ntuc that someone told me there was a beetle on my sleeve... I was so disguted... i wanted to swat it but i was scared it would crawl into my clothes... I HATE INSECTS... EEEW... You would think that someone like me who knows tkd and is sorta rough sometimes wouldn't be scared if something like this but I AM... Last time when i refused to follow my brother's "commands" he would fling a dead cockroach in fron of me... maybe b'cos of this i am so emotionally traumatised when i see cockroaches... Anyways a beetle is better but its just as bad when its on your sleeve... in the end i asked one of the fruit aunties there to try to take it out for me... She told me not to be too scared and just picked it up from my sleeve and squised its body under her shoes... wow... But i really pity the poor beetle... hmmm...

Hello... this is the second time I am writing my blog in the day... Haha... I just finished my lesson on leadership... and just ate my dinner in the south canteen... Seriously the food there is nicer and cleaner. But it is rather far... i am too lazy to go there sometimes... Anyways Jenny was the one that suggested that we go there and eat... We are sick of eating in the north canteen cause we eat there almost every day... haiz... But nevertheless I am happy we have food to eat... Me Jenny and eveline ate the tasty yong tau foo there and it was rather superb... Jacqueline ate the western food (typical of her). Haha... Anyways I am so excited next week is the week long break... haha... Planning of wat to do but off course i will try to plan my time properly... Tomorrow will be a busy day for me as I got IVP... have to meet Kavi at 6 at his bus stop and reach boon lay at 7.30... Haiz... so early... but I really hope there will be good results but even if we dun win anything i still love them lots... haha!!! Towards mid afternoon I got to set of for my class bbq in east coast... Hope it will be a nice event... Me and jenny plan to sit by the sea side and sing songs... haha (ok... I know its sounds lame but its simple and sweet!!!). And this time we dun plan to do any bbqing ... cause the previous time our sub group was in charge of the bbq but this time we just sit back and relax... I really hope it will be a nice experience.

Recently I find that I am starting to love my class more and more though I dun really show it... every individual is just so interesting and has so much potential...Though I not close to some of them i know they are nice ppl (although some like to gossip)... haha... God bless my class... and I hope everyone will be happy even when we go our seperate ways!!!

And guess wat... On sunday my sister is treating us to lunch buffet... I AM SO EXCITED>>> haha!!! Its just sooo fun to eat... but off course i know its important to eat in moderation but once in a while its ok to eat lots... Hooo Hooo!!! This buffet has lots, got sushi, grilled food, sashimi, prawn, spaghetti and lots of other... I am really very HAPPY!!!. I know alot of ppl may think i am very easily contented but we should enjoy the simple pleasures of life~~~ haha

And without further ado i shall make my exit... i need to catch up on some work... wish me luck for my tkd tonite... hope... i wun get injured... (I am just too gentle I guess)

Hello... I am now in the level 5 e plaza lab writing this entry... Have not had much inspiration to write my blog recently... Now I am listening to this very nice song by Li Sheng Jie called "Shou Fang Kai"... I have a clinical lesson at 1 so can't write for too long...

Anyways this morning I woke up in a very negative tone... Full of negative thoughts and I was in a very irritable mood... Everything in my house seems spoiled... Radio spoiled, computer lag, printer spoil, scanner slow, tv broke down, air con leaking, fan squeeky... Haiz... and ths morning my discman completely cannot work any more (old age ba)... haha... Anyways i was thinking of all the negative things and pitying myself... Until I suddenly thought of meditating... I rushed to the toilet and sat down on the toilet seat... And just meditated... just try to relax and try to get everything out of my head... after i relax i just concentrate on the darkness... and control my breathing...when i open my eyes i felt much better... And I prayed to god to make me the person he wants me to be... Wat is his will for me... Will I make an impact on anything or anyones life... If so I hope It is positive... Recently I think I have sorta changed... Last time i used to be very persistent in learning and never give up even when i make mistake but now i seem to be afraid to make mistakes... maybe cause sometimes i looks so stupid making mistakes... but i will try to change this trait of mine... I will pick myself up and walk on... If we make mistakes we should not run away from it... thats wat i learnt... hope I can apply it to my life... in tkd and nursing...

You are Romantic

You are romantic.
You are just like me sometimes. You love the
classic Romeo and Juliet movies, how love
usually conquers all. People might think of you
as girly, and cute, but you are really serious
when it comes to love. You yearn to have a
boyfriend (if you don't have one) and you know
you will treasure that friendship forever. Your
first kiss may mean a big thing to you, if you
haven't gotten it yet. You fall for romantic
songs, moonlight serenades, and yes, cute boys.
You are sweet to both genders, and small kids,
and respectful for elders. You will be a very
good wife and mother. Oh yeah!


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Errrm... is this really me... haha!!!

I just came back from my day of volunteering... Actually did not do much... only to distribute balloons for kkh campaign on making babies and child care... This morning I woke up in a sleepy mode and met up with Angelina at parkway parade. was really thankful she WAS THERE TO accompany me... We started off by preparing the balloons... They had a pump to blow them and we had to arrange the balloons nicely. After that we had to distribute the colourful balloons to the children and promote kkh chldren membership to the parents. Then tell them about certain talks of the day that were coming up such as childhood asthma or sleeping problems. Then there were some doctors and nurses that were there to give free consultation to the parents on how to manage there children...

Overall I thought it was a fairly simple activity to achieve with cute children all around... haha... they are just so lovable i feel like pinching there cheeks. I saw Jenny there too... She came over to parkway parade after her church service. haha... I am always so happy to see her cause she is such a dear sister to me... She said I look very happy and was smiling all the way... hmmm... (actually i am actually very sleepy)... haha... I also saw my sec 3 and 4 e maths teacher... And she still remembered me and Angelina... I remember when we were in sec. 3 she was pregnant... and that Verna always said I look like her... -___-"

I also saw Verna and Foong Cui... Hmm... actually dun know wat to say... but foong cui has become slimmer and her body is nice, her face seems sharper.... Anyways i wish her all the best... In life, love and success...

And i think I also saw my Girl's Brigade junior... Sim yen... but i can't be sure... She is still as small size as ever (even smaller than me) but she has long hair now... haha... Hope this cute mei mei of mine does well in life too... i remember we used to give each other encouragement during drill practices and GB meetings...

I also saw one of the mediacorp actresses... though not a very popular one... she acted in Happy Fish... but i dunno her name...

Haha... seems like i really bumped into alot of ppl I know... After all singapore is not a very big place... I think god has a reason for letting me bump into them... or maybe he just wants me to trigger a memory or two... cause all these memories make me me... I do not regret those sad or disapointing memories... cause even if i regret there is nothing that can be undone... rather its better to just look back and think of ways to learn from that experience... (i dunno whether I am making sense again but i think its rather sad for a person who has no memories... but i guess some things are better not to think back )

A few days ago I bumped in the person I used to like in year 1... i did not see him for almost half a year, then he suddenly appeared b4 me. And the funny thing is i bumped into him in school 3 times in the same day... in the most unexpected places and strangest circumstances... but its really funny... when you expect something it never comes, but when you least expect it it comes after you. Haiz...

And my sprained foot seems to have become worse... it has never healed properly and it hurts when i walk and even when i dun walk... soon i will have to make this critical decision...

Today I admit i never did anything fruitful or eventfulll i was a super sianz day... I started off the day meeting jenny and alina for a walk around bedok reservoir... I dun know wats with the weather these days... i smells of smoke... and its so misty... It feels as if the ozone layer is depleting cause by 8 it was damn hot and we all were sweating... We did not attempt to run as we did not want to inhale more of that stale air... During the walk we talked about many things... haha... All is girl talk... Anyways today i was not as energetic but still quite alert...

After that the 2 of us ate prawn mee at the coffee shop and drank horlicks with less sugar... really nice... dunno why nowadays when i grow bigger never drink horlicks already... actuallly i think its nicer than milo... haha...

Anyways my mood today is not very good too... recently i have not been in the best of moods i admit... And i get so fatigued very often...

Only until yesterday this thought sort of creeped into my head... I am thinking of talking a break from tkd for a while. Its either I do that or i just tell them i not coming any more
so i dun think i want to be rash... Just that recently I get soo unmotivated and osing my fighting spirit has gone down the drain.... But i dun dare tell anyone at the time being... i just so weak to let this feeling come into my head... Is there anyone i can turn too for advice... Haiz!!! I feel a bit lost...

Arrrrrrrrgh... i feel like strangling my brother... he now very free on his off day and slacking at home then he behind me keep irritating me and poking me and asking me stupid questions... i feel like using a slipper and stuffing it into his mouth... i JUST TOLD HIM TO SHUT UP CAUSE HE IS TALKING NON STOP NOW... I know it seems very unlikely that it comes out from my mouth but i am really irritated...AAAARRRRRRRGGGGH....

Here's a moving story from an email I received from a friend. Enjoy it!


When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms


On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy.

I was a strong and happy bridegroom. This was the scene of ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.

Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life.

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.

Dew said, You are the kind of man who best draws girls. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls. Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so.

I moved Dew's hands aside and said, You go to select some furniture, O.K.? I 've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.

However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slight joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn' t imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.

Once again, Dew said to me, Divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.

When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I 've got something to tell you, I said.

She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn' t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want to divorce. I raised a serious topic calmly.

She didn t seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!!

At that night, we didn t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast.

When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn t want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month's time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, Do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?

This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember . You carried me in your arms , she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.

I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form. I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when i carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don t tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn' t looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became more vague.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger.

I didn t tell Dew about this. I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now.

She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, All my dresses have grown fatter. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.

Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.

I held her tightly and said, Both you and I didn t notice that our life was lack of such intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious.

She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn t value the details of life, not because we didn t love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favourite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card.I smiled and wrote,

I 'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

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Chamomile Tea...You are Chamomile Tea.Your an original! Helpful to anyone in need and
always willing to lend a hand, you take action
but not through violence, people listen to you
for you have a knack for giving wonderful
advice! Many look up to you and you try your
best not to let them down. You have many
friends steadfast or no who consider themselves
lucky to be near you. You may have been hurt in
the past but you dont let that stand in your
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try to see the good in people which is an
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Hi... I am in the e lab cause have a 6 hour break... I am thinking of not going for the last lecture today... and just go for tkd lesson later... haiz... recently have been quite unmotivated in tkd... as if i sort of lost that excitement and fighting spirit of sparring or just being rough... as if i am slowly becoming more lady like... haiz... i just find that sooo unlike me... I just finished eating my lunch and am feeling a bit sleepy. but although have quite alot of fats around my tummy my BMI is 20.8 which is quite acceptable. I dun have any leadership elective module today... So i am thinking about wat to do during this break...

Yesterday jenny told me something very surprising... she told me that she met a guy friend that she can get along well with... though i dun know who he is, he sounds like a nice person... Haha... I am really happy for her... cause she is such a good sister of mine and i hpe she will find happiness and be very xing fu!!! god Bless her!!!

Have you ever thought that sometimes its actually useless to say sorry... You can get someones forgiveness but its takes alot more to forget... if you caused a big mess in that person's life saying sorry will not really help... it is just a way of admitting you are wrong... there is actually no way you can make the situation better... The person has to pick up the mess that you caused yourself... Wat can I say... haiz... Always put yourself in other ppl shoes... Sometimes i feel like that is very hard thing to do and very tiring to think so much... but its a must do especially if you dun want to hurt those around you... then they will start avoiding you... Everyone has lessons to learn in there life. We learn from them and grow from them... lets all grow together...

And for those hurt... i really dunno if there is something i can do to help you... haiz... or is it something that only you can settle... Pray that you are strong in all aspects...

I dunno whether I am making sense here... i am not very good at expressing myself...

My school starts at 2 today but I am going off soon... after eating my lunch... have to meet verna a bit earlier to meet her... I hope today will be a better beginning for the both of us... This morning i studied a bit on gastrostomy and jejustomy... I love studying first, then later can practice... cause I got rationale to back up my practice... cause i learn really slowly when i have no idea what I am doing... anyways later we have night class and have to practice gastrostomy and jejustomy tube feeding...

Anyways its one of those rare days where i can eat my meals at home... i love it... meals at home are so much healthier and have a motherly smell... haha...

Anyways yesterday during lectures i was so exhausted and ended up going to a very deep sleep... jenny told me the way i sleep very farnie... hhaha... so embarrassed... and its confirmed that we are going to have class bbq on 26... haiz... but on that day got ivp... must go and support the pattern team... kavi, lok, tuna and idy... I more excited to see them cause they are my closer friends... haha... must give them my moral support... anyways kavi smsed me yesterday telling me they improved... see... i told you u all can surely make it... its not important if you dun win any medals... wat matters is the effort put in... haha... i also have to apply this in my life also... haha... Its hard on you all cause life is not only abt tkd ... there is school... other commitments but you still deliver such unwavering commitment... I wonder if it was me whether i would be so committed... maybe i would , maybe not...

After school... met hafiz... haha... realise i have a reader of my blog... haha... so happy... cause i thought my blog has very little ppl reading it... but he is really such a nice boy... haha...everytime see him feel like patting his head... haha... (actually i love to pat ppl's head)

Hello... am actually suppose to go and eat my lunch now but absolutely no mood to go and eat... so I just asked jenny to go and buy some bread and milk for me... Dun worry... I still drink alot of water to keep myself properly hydrated... Haha... but need to drink more since i having stomach cramps and moderate gastroenteritis at the same time... no wonder feel a bit fatigued and sianz...

This morning i thik I woke up on the wrong side of bed... I was in super chao da face black mood... Then i took a while to get ready.. then was late cause kept on going to the toilet... Was supposed to meet my friend on the way to school... But i was late and sort of smsed her some mean words... I really did not mean it... Just that sometimes when we are certain situations we cannot think properly and are not so sensitive... Anyways i hope she is not upset... But she is very understanding... I feel this friend of mine has grown... to a beautiful young woman from secondary school... last time she could be in black face mode for the whole day... but now she can really understand ppl... She is really a unique person... i remember last time in secondary school i used to be a bit scared when her face became black but now its really much better... We all havee sort of days... but we are slowly but surely growing to be beautiful ppl... haha...

I remember last time i used to ask one of my secondary school friends, usha... am i pretty... haha... but she only said I am beautiful... then she said me and kavi were like angels in her life... I am sure everyone has a beautiful side of them waiting to be discovered or already there... i can see it in alot of ppl though they dun notice it themselves...

Now i am listening to this song called "try again" by Westlife

Try Again

Hush now, Don't you cry
There will be a better dayI promise you
We can work it out
But only if you let me knowWhat's on your mind
Baby, you thought it was forever
Through any kind of weather
But somedayYou will find what your searching for

Try again. Never stop believing
Try againDon't give up on your love
tumble and fall is the heart of it all
So when you fall down
Just try again

Smile now, let it go
Hey, you will never be aloneI promise you
If you can't fight the feeling
Oh yeahSurrender in your heart
Remember, love will set you free
Baby, you thought it was foreverYou would always be together
But someday you will find what your searching for
Try againNever stop believing
Try againDon't give up on your love
Stumble and fall is the heart of it all
So when you fall downJust try again
Baby, when a heart is crying
It sometimes feels like dying
Tear drops fall like rain
Whoa WhoaBaby, you thought it was forever
You would always be together
But someday you will find what your searching for
Try againNever stop believing
Try againDon't give up on your love
Try againNever stop believing
Try againDon't give up on your love
Stumble and fall it's the heart of it all
So when you fall downJust try again

Haha... this song is the song Angelina let me hear during my secondary school days...Its really inspiring... There was once in the news about this girl who was abducted by her friends that she trusted ... Where she was tortured and raped... Angelina made this card from our school for her to give her encouagement... sHE put the lyrics of this song... I really hope that girl can stand up after this incident... it must be very hard for her to ever trust anyone again...

My darling Angelina... saw her that day during valentines day... me and fiona just happened to walk past kfc and she ran out and called me... so happy to see her... Though we seem like 2 very different ppl we can be such great friends... Really happy that we can still be so close after secondary school...

Anyways... thank to my darling blog... i really really love writing in my blog sometimes... although sometimes i neglect you i hope you are not irritated with me... been busy recently... i know you will forgive me (or rather you have no choice)

Later, I have to go and discuss my psychology project with jenny and the rest... haiz... hope we get more clues about how to go about it... then after that after school... got singing at kkh... i feel a bit worried cause I never practice the songs at all... Haiz... that is my weak point... i always never practice eg. tkd, clinical skills... or else i can surely become better... but now I must TRY AGAIN... even when i stumble and fall (haha... from the song)

I want to dedicate this song to my friends in tkd pattern team... Haha... although this song is a bit like a love song but you get the gist is to TRY AGAIn... cause its really frustrating for them ... they got everything except power... They practice the whole day still cannot exert enough power to give that WOW feeling... well i wanna say... GOD BLESS THEM>.. I will really support them again... just that sometimes i dunno how to express in words...

Okok, i really got to go now...

Before i joined tkd i never knew it would bring me so much joy, laughter, happiness, excitement, sadness, disapointment... it was just a sport to learn self defence... I never even thought of getting a black belt... Some ppl joine just for getting a black belt... some join just to meet a black belt bf or gf and live happily ever after or wat... some join to jian fei. Sometimes i wonder whether it is a good idea to join...

Dear god, please let me be more sensitive to other ppl feelings... Everyone is a unique human being and should be respected... One is example is there is this guy in tkd who i used to dislike cause he was such a show off... He was good in pattern and sparring but only thing is like to show off... I always did not like to talk to him, and sometimes very sarcastic... But I just found out he has a slipped disc back problem... and wun be able to join sparring and pattern anymore... He is also thinking of quitting... I pray that you will carry him during this period...i guess i should be kinder in my words... And i pray for all my friends... That you will give them the strength... Pray for me also that you will give me wisdom to bring words of encouragement and not words that tear a person down...

I am really tired... really tired... i almost fainted during tkd... all thanks to my stupid mensus cramps... but its when i am weak that i am strong (sometimes you get to see things from another perspective)...
And sorry to Zi Bin... From now on i will call you by your name... pardon me for my insensitivity. Ppl make mistakes sometimes but i am glad you told us you are upset...

Anyways i really got to sleep ... got a terrible head ache now...

Today has been a pretty eventful day... This morning I woke up at 10 and had this really funny dream but i can't remember wat its about... Then I did some of my project (cause was suppose to meet up later with jenny to discuss project)... Was soo busy in the morning did not really bother to pack my bed... My mother kept on nagging with me... asking me to do this, do that, pack my room, massage her leg... Cause usually I like to massage her leg cause she has leg pain and has all those veins popping out... but I am sure she will forgive me.

After that I went for Jenny's house to go "bai nian"... Went with an empty stomach so ate lots of food... I feel so lucky... be be able to eat is such a blessing... (but after this period I will try to eat more healthily... as in dun eat so much buffet or unhealthy food... anyways i think I have passed that period already). I went to her house and saw jenny's whole family... every one was either wearing pink or red... Jenny microwaved me a cheese pizza (which was verry nice and soft), yam, ate almond flake cookies, apricot butter cookers, a bit of bak kwa, pistachio nuts and ate some canned rambutan with pineapple with all the syrup drained off replaced with water... And i drank peach tea and unsweetened malt soya bean... (tastes like Horlicks)... I ammmmmmmm soooooooo happy to eat!!!! But really hope after this period can lose weight... Recently have been getting lots of tummy fats... Haiz... Want to go swimming after this period...

Anyways gave Jenny's mother 2 small oranges and she gave me a red packet... Jenny's mother is a very child like person... I think she is very strong... Some how reminds me of my mother... haha... (wat am I talking abt again)... Anyways had a really fun time at jenny's house though was a bit tired...

After that went off to the library and skipped church service cause i was really fatigued (its that time of the month again...) Then I was searching for one book which I saw in the book shop but too expensive to buy (25 dollars) . Its called Chicken Soup for the Nurse's Soul... Haha... (no one seems surprised that I read this sort of books)... Maybe when Have time I type some of the stories in my blog... i think maybe ppl like Alina may be interested in these sort of books too... Anyways I was specifically looking for the book and it took quite some time to look for it... also had to pay some library fines... I hope in this new year I will try not to leave things to the last minute... (as in forget to repay library fines)... haha!!!

Today has been a rather fun day... Me and Fiona joined this event organised by my friend Cyvia in Voice Ensemble to volunteer to sing at KKH to the children in the wards... Today we went for the rehearsal and we sang songs like Gong Xi Gong Xi, A African song called Siyahamba, Colours of the Wind... I am so happy fiona came with me and rather touched she even become alto because of me ... haha... but rather confusing when i sing next to her cause she always sing soprano part... And she is always so ever enthusiastic and happy (hmm...sometimes lah)... Like she give the colour of very bright yellow. As for me I think I either give off the colour of white or light yellow... a more subtle colour... haha ( I have no idea wat I AM talking abt now)

ok... i dunno why... I have suddenly lost all inspiration to write... continue when I have the time!!!

Hello, today is cny... Dun need to do any visiting today, just stay at home and help my mother prepare food... like boil rice , cut vegetables prepare the meat... my mother does the actual cooking... i am just her small apprentice... My sister and brother in law are coming over later for lunch... My aunties (mother's sister) coming over for dinner... Actually is a unexpected visit... My mother actually planned to rest at home today as this is her off day since she started work (she has to work 7 days a week). So this morning she worked ever so hard to prepare nice food... haha... i initially helped her with some of the work... But now I am a bit tired... Haha... so I steal some time away to go online... Can't believe she is still cooking now...

Now I am in my brother's room typing thing blog... He jus woke up (lazy bum)... Then i think I always make him irritated casue i always come into his room and treat it like my recreation area... He says I always drop hair in his room... And when he buys snacks I always eat them up... Haha... can't help it... I can be a pig sometimes... He keeps his room quite tidy I have to admit... but he does not care about the rest of the house... Never see him taking active particiaption in spring cleaning (I better not talk anymore abt him , He is behind me watching tv).

Anyways i am sort of happy dun have to go visiting ... Can't you tell I am not a very happening person... Sometimes its nice but depends on my mood...

Yesterday, we had our reunion dinner... Surprisingly my father was the one who cooked... this is really the first time I tried his cooking... Well... errm... its edible... He bought a whole roast duck... and prepared the steam egg which i had to steam, cut the vegetables which I had to fry...
-____-"... he made the soup... (haha... tasted a bit like plant soup)... but its the thought that counts right... Then there is something that I find very funny... My grandmother wanted to prepare the rice... I wasn't there to supervise her or anything... Then in the end my father helped her to on the cooker... in the end we found out my grand ma put in enough rice to feed 12 ppl... Then i think it was burnt... cause my father said its not edible... Then my grand ma... was mumbling something to herself about being old already... Its a good thing it was cny eve so my father never go further into the matter...

Anyways wish everone a happy chinese new year.. may this coming year be good for you all!!!