You Have A Type B Personality

B You're as laid back as they come... Your baseline mood is calm and level headedCreativity and philosophy tend to be your forte Like a natural sedative, you have a soothing effect on peopleFriends and family often turn to you first with their problemsYou have the personality to be a spiritual or psychological guru

This morning Alina, Jenny and me met to go jogging around bedok Reservoir at 6.30... I was a bit worried i could not wake up since I came back very late last night... But i guess I feel so energetic after i got the compliment from sir peter yesterday... Its likes being in love but a bit different ... ahaha...

We only jogged for half the journey after which we sat down and saw the sun rise (actually cannot really see). The breeze was nice and cooling... It just felt so peaceful. Jenny cannot run too long as she has asthma... so for the rest of the journey we walked and talked at the same time. It was a very nice experience and we plan to try to go at least once a week... After that we ate dim sum at one of the coffee shops... Its really nice!!! I shall keep these memories to my heart always...

Today is a very special day to me... Words cannot describe how I feel... I just have been down these past few days... But I am so happy Lok and Tuna persuaded me to go for tkd today... Today Sir Peter came for the training... I really like him but i dunno how to talk to him... He is such a fatherly figure. Anyways they were doing selection for IVP pattern team so the senior belts were supposed to spar to see who can enter the competition... I dunno why, but sir peter suddenly pointed to me asked me to go out and spar although we not required to go an sparTuna and me were the only 2 junior girls that he asked to spar... me and tuna were a bit puzzled... anyways Tuna told me not to spar with her too seriously cause she had a injured shoulder... so i did not use alot of strength... I could hear sir peter at the side telling us to use the techniques we had learned and i used a few but i could not remember much... But he did say good when he thought we did well...anyways i felt guilty having to hit tuna (actually she is quite gentle). In the end i kicked her when she was trying to block with her hand and she sorta got injured... anyways i felt guilty and was wondering whether I did anything wrong... and i asked sir peter... but he never replied me... I was feeling quite bad and got a bit irritated at Tuna when she was complaining that i scratched her hand when i was kicking and she was blocking... ( I mean how gentle can you be when sparring)... But i know i should not have been irritated at her...

I remember the previous time on the day i sprained my ankle the seniors were sparring too and sir peter who happend to come that day also asked me to go out and spar... I just think he likes to pick on me... cause its not the first time... and sometimes he looks so serious...
But today he said something which i will keep in my heart for the rest of my life... When I was leaving and saying bye to everyone he suddenly turned to me and said, "You are good you know... Keep it up... and if you practice more you will be even better.... But you must come for the trainings.!"

I believe words can sometimes build a person or break a person... This time it built me up...

Sir peter is the person I respect most... he does not give compliments easily and looks stern often... although sometimes he likes to joke around... but i never joke with him...
I remember there was once i was giving everyone chrismas sweets and i gave to him too... He suddenly looked at me and looked so touched and said, "No student has ever given me a present" ... Although it was just sweets he still looked so touched...

Recently been quite depressed after i got from pattern team cause i really had a feeling of being lousy... that i was so lousy i got eliminated... like such a louser... and recently have not been as enthusiastic when going for tkd... its only tuna, lok and kavi that bring me back... but i feel changed today... ppl believe in me... and that person's words carry more weight than any tom, dick or harry... thank you god for letting me come to tkd... and letting me know myself and slowly grow... although the process is tiring and sometimes discouraging but it is a growing process and i know you are always here with me though i always complain alot... And thank god for great friends...

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Hello... now i am back in the e plaza typing this entry... Have been feeling a bit of a head ache today so feel a bit disorientated today...

Anyways today my first class was at 1 pm... I woke up at 10.30 a.m. Haha... Did not get to see Kavi, Tuna, and Lok performing for tkd pattern for open house at 11... anyways I heard it was not bad... just need a bit more coordination... Anyways i wish them all the best... harmony between team members which is very important...

The school is very lively today but dunno why... i dun like being in places where there are alot of ppl sometimes... just makes me even more disorientated... haha... My first lessson was Biology on Gastro Intestinal tract... we are just starting to learn on the oral cavity and esophagus... A adult is supposed to have 32 teeth... but i only have 28 teeth... I counted and re counted... Its still 28... Which means my wisdom tooth has not come out yet... I sort of dread the day when my other teeth come outcause i like my teeth position the way they are now... and once my wisdom teeth come out it will be quite packed and may require a surgery to take out the wisdom teeth... haha... Wow... thats scary... I just hate going to the dentist... its one of my big fears... haha!!!

After that we had a lecture on Paediatric Nursing cause this semester we will be going to the children ward for out attachment... Anyways i think working in children ward and adult ward is very different in many ways... so i hope i can learn to be adaptable... and in children ward... usually the parents are very protective over there children.. so must be more careful...

After my lectures I went over to the atrium to see the performances... i saw my cousin who is in Foreign Bodies... haha... He can do the wriggle very well... and can dance pretty well too... Besides he has liked dancing ever since very young... haha... His whole family would go together for dancing classes last time... But i always found him softer than me.... haha... And its funny how i joined tkd while he joined dance... haha!!!

And managed to see my darling Fiona dancing her JMD dance... I enjoyed it thoroughly... Hmmm... How to describe the dance... it was autenthic and very cute... especially with the girls wearing the yukata and carrying fans around and covering there faces... haha... Actually i sort of prefer this type of more traditional dances... Just as I like chinese orchestra... haha... i know... i have weird taste... Thats why Xiao na told me to come for her chinese orchestra performance this sunday... she asked the right person... Anyways Fiona looks very cute dancing... haha... and there was another girl called brendy... I dunno why but when I look at her she has a very pleasant face...

After that I become a bit tired and went over to theatre of the arts area to look at Kavi's French club booth... Did not really do much there but just stole some free food... haha... Saw Cyvia at her Voice Ensemble booth....After that I joined Lok, Indira and Tuna to walk up to the tkd area booth... Actually i did not play any role in open house... i could have volunteered to tend the booth but did not... so a bit pai seh to show my face there... but i guess its ok... Cause i got volunteer for other things in tkd... haha... and at least I am a more committed member... Haha... I saw them doing target kicking there... Haha... anyways i got enough of target kicking... My leg hurts now... I saw kailing there and actually wanted to talk to her... cause I know deep down she is a nice person... but did not in the end...

Lok, tuna and Indira wanted to get the free goodie bag but we had to register or something so in the end we did now... haha... From there we went to see the row of shops... I bumped into Bin Jie coming out of the Macdonalds area... Haha... was quite excited ... haha...and his friend was in tkd also... must pull him back cause never see alot of ppl for a long time... I find it rather pathethic... last time when i joined tkd there were about 30 ppl who joined at the same time as me but they slowly went off... one by one... now i think there are less than 10 of us juniors around... haiz... thats why must pull more ppl back... haha... anyways happy to see Bin jie ... hope he eats properly... muhaha... i dun think he needs a diet...

I bought 2 slices of pizza which i dun think was very filling... But the taste is not bad... its from Canadian Pizza...

Anyways the computer lab technician is chasing us out of the computer lab... I am such a poor thing... haha...

Yesterday when i told one of my seniors that i got eliminated from the pattern team and was a bit sad she told me dun worry... She can tell I always put in alot of effort... I am comforted at least there are ppl that recognise my effort... cause sometimes i find myself quite similar to her... we are both slow learners and cannot move around as well as we are flat footed and we both sometimes have a problem in coordination... but I still respect her cause I find her very determined... Ok I really got to go now...

Hello... How is everyone... its a nice and sunny day... I am here in the e plaza typing this entry... I am a bit mentally tired since I ended class at 3 but my tkd only starts at 6.30... So I went around the school with Xiao na and Hui Fen and we talked about many things... haha... after that I decided to come to the e plaza to take a short nap and slept for half an hour... haha... Since then I have been doing a bit of CMS...

I am a little dreading feeling to go tkd today... but i am only going because i promised xiao fang i would go... and its not good to break a promise... Its just that I was eliminated from the pattern team yesterday... I just feel like such a loser... Though I acted normal and was still smiling I was really sad inside... but i did not want to let Kavi or my other friends see cause i did not want them to worry about me... Yesterday when I went back home alone i suddenly started tearing... I can say I really put in effort... but seems like it is not enough...

I know god has his reason for the way he does things and I am sure he has a plan in my life... but i just feel like letting it out for a while...

Anyways i dun know wats with me these days... i find it rather hard to be happy and smile genuinely... Seems like the negative side is taking over me...

Good thing there was my darling Fiona to give me some words of advice... Sometimes you just need someone to get you to snap out of it... its really tiring to do everything yourself sometimes... Thanks to Bin jie too.. though i did not really talk to him yesterday... haha... And plese dun learn from me... or if you want to learn just learn the good points... haha

Actually by now i have sort of sorted out my feeling from last night... I will not run away from my failure and will face it... Its not how you fall down that matters but how you pick yourself up... If I run away ppl will look down on me, but if I persist on I know I will get somewhere (though i dun know where) someday... Kavi always encourages me and tells me thats he finds me a big motivation in tkd... though I dun motivate verbally but it is through my actions I guess... cause no matter wat even when I am very tired I will not complain but still persist on... I dunno whether it is a good point or not... cause i remember my sprained ankle just recovered but i still insisted on running and jumping... cause i dun want to lose out to other ppl... haha... guess thats me... when I am sad i wun want ppl to worry... when i am hurt i dun want ppl to see...

Actually i feel that I am a very weak person... I am not intelligent or anything... but I am hard working... Although there are certain things that I will take longer to learn I try my best... but its always my lack of confidence that i cannot present my best... Its sickening ... I got to work on this weakness of mine... maybe it is also my lack of inner motivation that killed my chances of getting into the pattern team...

How can I love other ppl when i dun even love myself... I pray to God that he will carry me through my journey in life, when sometimes I am tired and longing for him... And pray god for those that I care about... pray they will always be happy!!!

Hello... now at home writing my blog... talking to Bin Jie at the same time... He seems to be very stressed over school projects and never eat properly... Haha... actually sorta reminds me of the time in the previous sememster when i was sooo busy then always skip meals and drink coffee... but i decided i wun skip my meals and will eat healthily... maybe sometimes carry some bread or drinks in my bag for snacks or tea time...

Anyways now i am watching a very nice korean drama called "Sunshine of Love"... It is really nice... About sunlight in the darkness... I want to be the small tinkling star in the dark night... haha... significant in my own little way...

Anyways I started reading online the comic "Naruto". Its not bad... Haha... So far I only read the first chapter about this boy called Naruto who is actually used to be a demon but his powers were sealed... Everyone in the village knew he was demon except himself and treated him with hostility... But he never knew the real reason... He had no parental love and was hungry for it... so he was very mischievious and naughty... Only his teacher was the one that believed Naruto was a good person although the teacher parents were also killed by the demon but he still believed naruto was good... Anyways Verna told me she would lend me the comic for Naruto... so excited... Haha!!!

Hello... I am now in the school computer lab typing this entry... Not really sure I am happy today... cause the patient I was very close to (one of the aunties) condition suddenly turned critical and had to be resuscitated... and she did not live past the afternoon... Sorta sad cause i have been doing sponging for her these few days and I always like talking to her... When the doectors were all rushing to try to resuscitate her there was nothing i could do... After her death her corneas were taken out and I saw the whole procedure... the eye doctor cutting out the corneas from her eyes and... when they took it out there was some liquid that came out from the eye as if the aunty was crying... I can't understand how this can happen... She was so full of life yesterday.... Anyways life is so unpredictable... the room she was brought to in isolation is the exact room my uncle died in...

Anyways later I am going for tkd... Haiz... dunno why recently i become so discouraged by tkd... maybe cause i have to cope both attachment and tkd... Yesterday they were teaching me the yellow green tip pattwern and I really wanted to give up... I was sooo frustrated and stressed and just did not put in any effort and i kept making the same mistake... its also cause i was damn tired ... Hmm... is it cause i am not up to it... i am human after all... there are times when i will feel vulnerable... I just feel like running away from my weakness... Haiz... I am such a coward... And also sometimes I find i dun really fit in tkd...but seems like i am not the only person to think like that...

Anyways today a new batch of brand new ite students came for work... haha... I try to help them the best that i can... cause i know wat it feels like going out to the wards the first time ... you will feel very lost and blur... and sometimes you will get very discouraged... any form of help can lift you up... haha... and i tried giving learning oppurtunities to the year 1 student and help them the best that i can...

And today I received a compliment from the staff nurse i am working with ... she said i am very hardworking and another staff nurse she believes i will be a very good staff nurse in the future... Hope it happens... its my dream... and today on the way to school I came with ai fang and she told me I am always very passionate abt my job until sometimes I can forget to go for my breaks... haha(which happens very often)... she says i am always very energetic (actually not always) and enthusiastic... and will put a smile on ppl face... haha... i am soo flattered... hope i work towards my goal...

God Bless those around me...

Hiyee... has anyone missed me !!! I have been pretty busy with attachment and all so got no time to write my blog... and there are quite a few written assignments we have to complete during this attachment... I am currently in Ward 58... It is a general surgery ward and there are alot of amputee cases... (eg. toe, or leg cut off)... and we have to do alot of dressing... so far I have done 3... Mdm Wong saw my dressing and said it is really bad... boo hoo... mainly cause I have no assessing skills and no organisation... I am one big unorganised girl... muhahaa.... and she said she might have to fail me... Then she ask me to do another one after that and I did much better... I dun know why... but I have a fear of doing dressings... haiz...

Anyways i came back to school for tkd... I am sooooooooo tired and exhausted already but I come because this sunday is my tkd grading AGAIN!!! I am so unprepared... haiz... and recently I have no time to practice my tkd pattern... not like during my holidays when I got all the time in the world... I hope more ppl come for tkd today especially those with the same belt level as me... then it will be more fun... Ok.... I going to take a short little nap b4 tkd starts... i just feel so lethargic today...