Hello... today is another uneventful day... woke up at around 9 pm and did some house work such as washing, folding and ironing the clothes... I just hate ironing clothes... and packed a bit of my room... its very messy... can't help it I am a pretty messy person... Just now i went out for lunch with my cell group at Long John Silver... And I met a new friend called Pei Li... she is in same secondary school as Fiona... haha... and she is also a korean drama fanatic... haha... Nothing much to say except that Ina say she will lend me the Inuyasha movies that she downloaded and the whole series of Ragnarok: Inspector Lochi... so excited... so happy to see them again...

Ok... today was a pretty uneventful day as I dun feel like going out... Just feel like resting at home... And I woke up pretty late around 12... haha... which is quite unusual for me... Haha... Anyways I had a nice long sleep... Did not do much, just lazing around at home... dun even feel like doing house work... just sianz and watching loads of tv programs...

Haha... and I borrowed a few vcds... haha... one is "Ella Enchanted". Just finish watching it... Haha.,.. sooo nice... I really like the story... its just so magical... About this girl who is under a curse of obedience even if it is against her will... So it traces her story of self actualization and finding in her heart the way to unlock in this curse... Must believe in yourself... haha... But is recommended... very nice to watch and got nice songs... overall a very happy show... The setting is very fairy tale like with a prince appearing... haha... and evil step sisters and step mother... and Ella of course as the main character... haha

And I also borrowed 2 other VCD which is "13 to 30" and "Ghost"... Haha.,... as for the ghost show i watch it tonight with my brother... And i borrowed half the series of "Ren Wo Ao You" cause i miss alot of episodes... Haha... its much cheaper to rent the vcd... I just watch the first episode of "Ren Wo Ao You" and its true... i do find fiona xie acting not as good in the beginning... her acting improves as the story progresses... I suddenly thought of of the time when I was watching the first few episodes of "Ren Wo Ao You" in fiona's house was the day we drank the strawberry wine which was quite horrible... muhhahaha!!!

Ok I gtg off now!!!

Hello... today me working afternoon shift but i just feel damn tired... reason being I had this real horrible dream last night... I cant really remember the contents only that i was trying to run away from someone or something... Then I remember being in my room also in the same position sleeping but it was still a dream... then i was scared and trying to reach out and call my mother who was right beside me... but there was something on top of me that was stopping me and i could not move... then i wanted to scream but there was no sound that came out... I tried to break out of the dream and woke up a great deal of times in the night but everytime i fall back and sleep the same dream would occur... Haiz... then the whole night cannot sleep properly... This is actually not the first time I had this sort of dream ... Had it quite a few times...

Then today I got back my results ... kinda of ok with them.. Haha... just that i think this sememster we really got less time to study as we had attachment right b4 exam... but i got better than i thought i would do... watever it is must be grateful...

Then i just found out something very valuable of mine got lost or stolen... My heart aches when i think of it... Maybe it is just my carelessness... Haiz... So sad....

Ok I got to go off now... really tired...

Hello... I was just a bit upset with the professionalism of some of the staff in the working place... I feel staff should help one another and make the working environmentt a more conducive feeling and not be selfish... in offering help and they should not bad mouth and gossip about patients (furthermore if it is right in front of the pateint)... and they should encourage each other and spur one another to become better nurses... Maybe it is also partly because i am pretty moody today and when i moody I will feel very sleepy... therefore i did not go for tkd... haha... but its ok lah... Kavi, lok, tuna all never go so its just as well.. Today they are going to show a very nice korean drams called "glass shoes " on channel 8... i think its very touching and the strory is very meaningful... The music from my blog is also from this drama series... hehe...

Anyways i feel as if there is not much to do in this ward... a bit boring... then there is one senior mid wife ask me to stick to my room ... dun go running about... then i was bored to death... cause my room only got 5 patients, 1 was discharged, 2 in operationg theatre... haha... so like nothing much to do... I dun really like the mid wife... I dun like the way she talk to the patient... just feel she is damn rude... but i like the sister... and even the staff nurses in this ward very free... but they say they are much more free when students come therefore they like students... =)... Haha..

Today I feel soooooooooooooooooooo happy.......... I also dunno why... Today my attachment is in the Gynaecology ward which is the ward for woman problems that have to do with reproductive system or after delivery... Haha!!! But i feel there is nothing much we can do... haha... its more of an exposure for us... cause most of the nurses there are specialised in midwifery, gynaecology or obstretics ... so i have to admit i am pretty blur in this ward... haha..

Just now a group of us nyp student nurses went into the nursery... unfortunately there was only one baby boy that was 3 days old ... haha... Then we were all looking at the baby... Cannot touch it as we must wash our hand b4 that... Then he started crying and i tried singing and humming tunes to him... haha... (i know it sounds stupid cause i could see my friend all look like this
-____-"...haha... )... But then after i hum the baby stop crying... then when i stop it will start crying again... Haha... Then the staff nurse was bottle feeding the baby and she ask me whether i want to feed it... haha... I felt quite honoured... Haha... but she ask me to wash my hands and wear and apron first... Haha...then she sort of guided me the proper way of holding the baby. The the head was resting on my arm and i did not really dare to move my arm so much so it ached after a while. I bottle fed the baby... haha... I can say this is my first time holding such a young baby... It is just such a special feeling... and he is so soft, fragile and nimble... like any moment he is going to break... so i held it like holiding a piece of gold... haha... Guess I was a bit stiff ... haha... but alina said i look very cute when i holding it... haha... both the baby and me... Then I kept on humming tunes and on the other hand sometimes i will say... "Wah ... how come you take so long one huh!!!!" then my friend said i sound very impatient but i was just joking... I think the staff nurse was quite amused by me... muhahaha... Then after that I burped the baby... Haha... it took quite a long time to burp it though... Haha... I now know why so many ppl especially nurses want to work in nursery or in KKH...

Its just that when i was carrying the baby and humming to it i felt this very strange feeling... Like i wanted to be very gentle to it... haha... (off course i wun use my tkd moves on it)... haha,, like I never knew i could be sooo gentle... Then I was thinking though it took 9 months and sooooooooooooo much pain for the baby to be conceived i am sure the parents have no regrets and will be very proud of the child no matter wat happens in the future... Haha... or maybe this is just a maternal instinct that ppl have... I am sure my parent felt that about me... When I am a baby Jolyn I am sooo pure but then I come into this world and learn all sort of weird thingys... haha... that make me a bit polluted...

I was thinking next time after my student days i dun mind if they post me in the nursery but i always wanted to do something different that less ppl will do... like go IMH, cancer ward or maybe if by 30 i am still single i will go and join my friend on mission trip giving medical and health care... but i have to work hard now... haha... but now a bit hard to say... I will just live a day at a time... muhaha... each day is a present already...

I encourage all those like Alina to try out taking care of the baby ... it is really a nice feeling... like so xing fu... =)... my friends think i am paranoid... haha... but i am just soooooooooooo happy!!!! I want to try out bathing the baby if i get a chance... haha...then next time if i really have a child of my own ( i am saying if... haha) then i will know how to take care of it really well... ok i shall cut the crappy stuff and talk about some other things...... haha!!!

Anyways one other thing i want to see is the delivery of a baby... But have to go to the labour ward... Its a real delivery... I know it must be very bloody... i felt so groused out when i watched the movie already... I think real life must be sooo dramamtic... with all the screaming and blood... Oh dear... the nurse in the labour ward said there was once a student fainted b4 when she was seeing the delivery process cause there was sooo much blood... the whole bed was soaked of blood... I think the labour ward is free most of the time ... cause maybe in one day there are about 3 deliveries but the rest of the time the staff are free and easy... haha...

Haha... basically today I am quite tired already when i went to work... as i did not sleep well for the whole night... It is quite sianz working in the gynae ward since most of the patients are ambulant... then care of the patients is also different in some ways... but the staff are pretty nice there... I must thank god for giving such a nice attachment experience this time round... Most of the patients have had surgery on hysterectomy (which is the taking out of ovary, fallopian tube and uterus) or post natal or maybe problems in with repro tract such as cysts or cancer... I am working together with Alina and Zion this time round... haha... and basically there is nothing much to do in this ward... haha... maybe can help the doctor in some procedures.. but i also not too sure about gynae procedures... haha... Then the charts in this ward are quite different from normal medical wards... and there is one thing i got to mention... it is that the pads that the patients wear or post natal women to control bleeding such as menstruation have to be tied around the waist.... its the type that our grand mothers use to wear... haha... it think must be soooooooooooo uncomfortable... oh dear... and not very secure also... All because in hospital they dun encourage the wearing of underwears... haha...

Ok... I gtg off now... Hope no one found my entry boring... haha!!! =)

Hello. today is my last day of attachment in Ward 47... Haha... seems so fast... and really enjoyed myself and made a few friends on the way... Just wanna enjoy my student days b4 I really become a staff nurse... i have no idea how i will be like... Maybe must have more confidence... Things are not as hard as they seem if you believe in yourself... haha... Anyways I going for Tkd later on.. haha... quite excited...Kavi is also going... haha... I never see him for such a long time already... haha... And they are going to tell us our long awaited results. Hopefully I can get double grading but chances are 0.01%... haha... I just saw Zhang Jin in the lab just now... Haha... never seen my class mates for so long...

Today I saw eveline on the way to work in the morning... reason being that she went to her bf house in bedok to stay there... haha... she had panda eyes... Haha... anyways really happy to see her... Then she ask me whether i want to go Sentosa tomorrow... haha... but i dun want... haha... And during work I dunno why I suddenly became a bit moody... Haha... then like cannot concentrate as well... Haha...Must be one of those bad moments... I just hate it... I must try not to let my mood affect my work... It is just so unprofessional... Anyways this time I think there are really alot of stuent nurses in the wardwhich is not such a good thing sometimes as sometimes it can be confusing imagin if all 6 students doing vital signs and there is only one machine... sometimes i get so irritated i just do everything manually... haha... its more accurate... And during break me, Alina , Jiang Yan and Brenda were eating fruits and discussiong abt tv programs ... haha... Brenda also a fan of Korean dramas... haha... the one and only similarity... haha...

Ok just now Jiang Yan came with me to school... haha... now like nothing to do... probaly eat a light dinner... Planned to go out with Fiona to eat supper but dun really feel like it.. she will probably kill me... no lah... she is too gentle for that sort of stuff... haha... Anyways thats all i have to say... haha,,, oh and one more thing Neetu ... one of my patients said we must keep in contact... maybe i write her a testimonial... haha.. ok got to go off now...

Hello... its been a while since I really blogged ... haha... Been sort of busy the past 2 weeks... Tomorrow is my last day of attachment in this ward after which I will go to Gynaecology and Obstretric... MY lecturer said I might be able to see the real delivery process when i am in Obstretric...Quite excited... Haaha... Wonder wat it will be like... Anyways this computer is super lag so it took me a while to get into blogger... By the time i get in i suddenly dun really feel like writing that much... haaha... I am really excited after work I got tkd... haha...Anyways i really love this ward. Ward 47 Colo Rectal. The staff are really friendly... I dun mind being posted to this ward after I graduate... haha,,.. Me posted in the woman's side... Last week was in the male side... I made good friends with all the uncles and aunties. Anyways this attachment I work closer with my class and find actually they are not that difficult to work with either all... It has probably brought our relationships closer together... haha... Hope when i go out to work in the near future i will have relationships like that... haha...

And i made really good friends with one of the patients named Neetu... she is just one year younger than me... she has DM... and i think she is a really nice girll... haha... the first time i met her was yesterday when I was taking her blood pressure... hasha... i guess i have this habit if no one knows of going around and talking to my patients... haha,... thats why i talk to her... i even gave her my Teenage magazine(though i dun really like reading, dun know why i buy also)... then she gave me a SHE poster that she had from her previous magazine... Then whenever i free... I will go and talk to her... then she will ask me questions like why we do this and that in nursing... then how to pass report and different sort of drips... haha,,, Then she say it is very interesting... She also says she like the nurses in this ward... feels everyone is just so friendly, staff nurses, students... even the cleaners are friendly... Then she say she really happy when i go and talk to her... cause is sort of like no one talk to her one... Only yesterday when i came into this room then i talk to her and entertain her... then she says after i do this other ppl seem to follow me and go by her bed side more often to talk to her... haha... she says she likes it this way... haa... so maybe i have been really giving someone mental diabetes... but i hope her physical diabetes is controlled though... I hope her mental diabetes dun affect her physical one cause her medical condition sort of interupt with her studies and she had to repeat a year... And just now we exchanged so our handphone numbers, friendster account and msn... Yippee!!! I made a new friend... haha...Then the staff nurse was like saying i can communicate well with the patients... but i think my dialect is really broken... hahaha

Well Today i went for morning shift... a bit of drag to get myself out of bed since I afternoon shift yesterday... haha,,, but never theless happy to be alive... each moment is precious, i never know when i will just go off like that... so i must make use of it... haha... then when i went to my work place i threw up my whole breakfast... i just cant seem to eat breakfast... dun have the habit of doing so... haha...I mean when i eat my breakfast at 5 my intestines all still asleep... haha... then i made athe toilet smell a bit like vomit... haiz... next time i must bring my air freshener around... haha... And me and Alina brought one of the patient to toilet and she blacked out halfway... goood thing we together... or else i really dun know wat to do... but tis woman very poo r thing also cause she really want to go home and look after her kids...

And there is another old cute little lady... she love listening to 93.3 and reading magazines with lots of hot hunks... haha... and just know we talked about Hong Kong drama Series,... she is a fan of it too... haha,.... then we talk until very excited... haha... she is just soooooooooo cute.... She said i look very happy go lucky all the time... haha,.. dunno whether that is good or bad....

I am really happy in this ward and i think it has a very nice environment... Really enjoying myself here... Haha... Anyways really got lots to say... also got something i learnt that is valuable but i a bit tired... haha... Maybe i continue tomorrow... Bye!!!

Your element is Light: Innocent, beautiful,
kind-hearted and pure. You are so sweet your
almost angelic, you find joy i" n others
happiness and cannot stand to see anyone in
pain. You want to make everyone around you feel
good about themselves and if someone is upset
you can tend to become rather upset as well
which means you are sympathetic and raise
others above yourself. Being as kind and
good-natured as you are people have most likely
hurt you in the past but you pick yourself up
every time. You may look fragile but you are
stronger than most tend to see. Life is
beautiful no matter how you look at it and you
understand that people make mistakes, not
everyone is perfect. You try to see the good in
the bad which is a talent few posses, dont ever
let anyone change you. You truly have a
beautiful soul inside and a heart of gold.

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Your Life

You are always surrounded by a circle of friends. You are friendly and fun to be with. Though you occasionally disappoint them by being stubborn, but over all, they love your qualities.

Your Love

You want to have full control of your love and that's not a nice way to treat your partner. You take your time in saying yes to his wedding proposal or if you are a man, you will not propose anyone until you are certainly confident which might take ages.

hello... I am presently in the school e plaza writing my blog... My feet are killing me... I had a tough day of work yet i am so crazy as to come for tkd... Haha, kinda tired but excited... Hopefully I manage to pass my grading cause i think they are gonna tell us the results today... Next month I have tkd camp... I think it is an out door camp so i hope nothing bad happens... And I cut my hair until very short yesterday... Haha... I feel better now... I think I suit short hair better... Jenny told me that too... Cause maybe I am more lively most of the times (except now cause my feet are killing me). Then I feel so relaxed and happy in short hair... Haha, just like a more light hearted feeling... So I dun think I will have long hair... just does not seem to suit me and I find most girls have long hair so I dun want..

Haha... I feel pretty uncomfortable in my uniform so i am gonna change out of it soon... Possibly maybe take a shower in school... Haha... Just not very comfortable to wear my uniform all around... Haha...

Anyways I am presently in SGH Ward 47 which is colo rectal. Down here I can meet alot of ppl asi have been to this ward b4 for my year one surgical attachment... I am very happy there as the staff are willing to teach... Although there are difficult cases to handle but at leat i feel better than in my previous ward... Haha... i think god must be blessing me... and today I managed to clean a stoma bag though i did not learn it before... ( the smell is not very nice though) haha... On the previous attachment in this ward I met a year 3 student called Sweetie... This time she is the staff nurse in charge... I can see she is having a very tough time adapting as a staff nurse... having alot of responsibilities... I think I will have a tough time too... I think everybody does in the beggining... If they dun they are really super woman... Anyways she is nice... Haha... and she always give me chances to practice my skills... but I have to say poor thing... she always have to stay back to finish writing her reports... Haiz... So sometime when I see her I tap on her shoulder and say i think you are doing a good job... Haha... Ok I think i better go off now... the e plaza is closing soon I think...

I dunno wat is wrong with me these few days... I just feel so depressed and lousy... like it seems i can't seem to do anything right... Then there is this voice in me that keeps on tellin me things like I can't do it... Haiz... just feel so useless...Dunno where all my determination and perseverance... its gone with the wind... Hope I will get back on my feet soon...

Hello... now i am watching this korean show called 'summer scent' ... its about this girl who has heart failure and she gets a new heart... then the fiance of the person that donated the heart start to fall for the girl that had a change of heart... Haha... then after they find out the truth they start to question whether it is because they really like each other or is it because of the change of heart matter... I am just wondering if it really happens in real life. Supposing if I die one day and my heart get transplanted to someone else will the person start to have my characteristic ... I dun really think so... To me, the heart is just a organ... when a person dies the soul is gone from the body. The heart pumps blood around the body and i dun think this thing will really happen in real life... haha... but this is just my thinking... There is no proof that it will happen... so i will just take it a fake... Haha... but i watch the show cause there is nothing to watch on a saturday night like this... And the actress is damn pretty... so envious... Hmmm... well I have my good points too i suppose...

And tomorrow me and Verna going to church service, maybe for a hour or so... haha... Cause its my church anniversary so i think will be quite interesting... Haha... my cell group member taking part in the drama so i must support her... Then we plan on going to eat long john silver... haha... there is a promotion meal i think... haha... so excited... she wanted to eat BK at first but i said i will eat anything except BK... (you all should know the reason)... Then can sit and talk to her... ( never have a talk with her for so long). Haha... Then after that we going to watch the "Doll Master" ... Alot of ppl said very scary... Haha... yeah we watching at Princess so I suppose the whole cinema will be empty... haha... i think I should bring my jacket... and me and verna said at least got each other if we really get scared... haha...

Haha... today when I wake up I still have a head ache... Good thing it is not the throbbing sort of head ache.. but a sharp pain at the back of my head. Maybe I hit it down there near the cervical bone... hmmm... must be careful, thats a very dangerous place to get hit... and I actually had time to go market with my mother... so happy... i just love going out with her... Then we bought some cheap birds nest for my grandmother... haha... I think birds nest got alot of sugar... I never liked it... neither do i like things like sharks fin or ivory all these sort of things... I think it just cruel to kill a shark just because of its fin... =(... I must stage a campaign against these sort of things...!!! Then spent most of the day sleeping and reading my I-Weekly... haha... (which is just so interesting you all must be rolling your eyes)... Ok... i am going to sleep now ... have to wake up early tomorrow to meet my friend...!!!

Helllo everybody!!!!!!!!!! I am so happy exams finish... This period has a tough period cause it is sort of like last minute studying... (I tried to study during my attachment but it was really hard)... So when i was studying I promised myself one thing... If I manage to pass this exams I promise to be a good student and be more attentive in class and try not to sleep... Cause this sememster I feel like i just manage to scrape through and I could have done better... Actually everybody is like this... Must make the effort to be more hard working... I hope to be a good nurse that can support my practical with theory so next time when i am teaching my juniors they will not be learning blindly... cause in the ward when i ask them why they do like this way they just say its the way it is suppose to be done... Last time in ward 64 I met alot of good staff nurse that make me hungry to learn and always back there practical with theory and make me think instead of just following and doing blindly... I am really happy i went there... My previous exam on Medical Surgical Nursing has been one of my tougest exams that I have gone through... Cause I feel like they might as well test us on the whole encyclopedia... And there were times I really wanted to burn the book but i know i am not going through it alone... So I just struggled on...And yesterday I really woke up at 5 and study and did some old test papers... its a really broad subject and you never know wat is really coming out... But i thank God because the topic i study in that morning came out though there were some i could not answer... But its actually when we really go thru trials that we actually grow so i thank god for this oppurtunity for me... Haha...

Now I am watching this Japanese show on Channel U... It is really touching... Haha... Yesterday after exam I went with Jenny, Alina and Eveline to eat student sushi buffet then we went window shopping... But yesterday I also saw someone I missed... Happy to see him!!!

Haha... anyways got to go now...

I am now at home watching tv and typing my blog. The show I am watching is called 'Heal and be healed'... Its very nice about a group of medical and health team professionals... Mainly about cases that get admitted into the hospital. Then alot of these cases sometimes cannot be healed cause some problems are just in the mind... Then about mainly 2 male doctors... One is a straightforward , hardworking and humble junior doctor that got posted to A and E then another is a handsome, smooth talking and money minded and ambitious junior doctor that always think of getting promotion and and use unscruphlous ways to get it... Then there is another female doctor working in the psychiatric department who has SLE... I think both the junior doctors will fall for her... haha... (well, it is a drama... haha). But I hope the first doctor I mentioned above will be with her in the end... He has a much nicer personality... Haha... in the end no matter how handsome you are it all boils down to character.

These few days I have been having a horrible migraine. At first it was my right side of the brain but after it shifted to the left side of my brain... haha... Then it also affect my next and sometimes my shoulder will feel a bit suan... haha... Hafiz told me I should eat panadol... haha... but I hope it will be better tomorrow... Then I always massage my neck and i felt a lump behind my neck... haha... and i ask alina to feel it then she said she could also feel it... Haha... maybe its some muscle or something... Haha...

Today I went over to Alina house to study... Haha... I think it was quite effective... sometimes its good to study with a friend... after all 2 heads are better than one... and it takes 2 hands to clap... haha... and i think her mother like me alot... haha... (alina must be rolling her eyes)... can't help it... maybe i am so adorable to all the aunties... haha... and i really thank her for letting me come to her house to study... I really had an enjoyable time... And when i was in her study room i saw her sister's A maths 10 year series and i can still remember how to do... roughly... haha... maths is such a nice subject...

The past few days I have been rather moody. And have really bad mood swings... haha... I also have really negative thoughts... like thoughts of giving up. Cause i just feel so crampy, moody, lousy and stressed up. But now i feel slightly better although i still have a bit of migraine. Tomorrow after exam we might be going to watch movie... haha... 'The Princess Diaries'... then I might need to go for my church cell group in the evening. Then next week its back to attachment for me... I am happy cause I am going to a new ward and it symbolises a new beginning... I CAN DO IT!!!! And next week I can also go for taekwondo practice... Yippee!!! I am so happy!!! Then they will tell us the results for grading... I dunno whether i can go for my class bbq cause i have afternoon shift work that day... but i will try to go... cause i dun want to disapointment my friend (but i dunno whether she will be) if I dun go.... haha... ok... i shall make my exit from here now... wish me luck for this killer exam...

Hello... today i am at home studying for my last paper which is HS2035. Medical Surgical Nursing... It is the subject with the most things to study... The e learning itself is thicker than the lecture notes... I feel so discouraged... Haiz... This module is on disorders of the body... Eg. Disorders of the Respiratory System consists of problems of obstruction of the airways and the lungs such as asthma and constructive obstructive lung disease, inflammation of the respiratory tract such as pneumonia and bronchitis, disorders of the pleura such as pleural effusion, pneumothorax, respiratory failure, chest surgery and also have to know about chest tube management... All this under respiratory system and we are tested on almost every system... Haiz... This is just too overwhelming... Then we have to know all the diseases of the system and know the causes, physiology,, sign and symptoms, tests to do to confirm disease, therapy to be given, medication to be given and wat is it for and if got any reactions (this kills me) and surgical interventions that need to be done if there is an operation. Furthermore must know the nursing diagnosis and write nursing interventions... haiz.......... Really got alot of things to remember... My brain just cant seem to fit all these in... God please give me the strength to go through this period... i feel as if I wun do so well for this exam... like so little time to study... Haiz...

I wonder why i join poly sometimes... I remember I got tell Jenny once that I would rather have gone ITE and become an enrolled nurse... haiz... then I will focus more on practical work... Haiz... i rather just give bed side nursing everyday and can talk to the patient... but the fact is i am going to be a staff nurse and have alot of responsibilities... haiz... When I go for attachment those ite students that are also in year 2 seem to know so much more than me in terms of practical skills (cause they have 6 mths attachment straight)... but i hope I do well for this exam... God bless me... haha...!!! EN Minto told me to enjoy my responsibilities with God's presence..

Hello... my bio test approaching by the minute... I kind of worried... I cant seem the get immunology into my head ... I hate studying about cells... Not like Fiona who loves to study cells... There still seem to be alot of things that I never study but wat i can say is i shall try my best... thats the only the i can do... Sometimes you think you are the only one going through this but when you look around you see lots of ppl going thru it together with you so you feel more relieved... God... Please give me the strength for the exam today... Pray that I will just give it my best shot... I can do it... I just doing some fun learning of bio in e learning... haha... those type of fill in the blank type of questions... haha...

Now in school everywhere got alot of ppl but i come to the bio lab only got me... haha... some more got air con and computer... Haha... I wish everybody does well in this bio test even when there is alot of uncertainty whether we can really make it...

Yes... and yesterday night my father came back... haha... cant say i really miss him or anything but i will try to build up my relationship with him (after all he is a lonely old man... haha) and today I was telling him about all the blood disorders... That he can donate to me but i cannot donate to him... or else he will get transfusion reactions and get cell death and clumping of the blood and in the end the renal tubules will be blocked and he got chance of getting renal failure... haha... and he was so amazed at my knowledge... (after all I am so knowledgable... Like real)... ...
And recently i dound out that my cd player can listen to radio... haha... yeah... just found out... haha... and i listen to 93.3 on the bus... haha... got frequency most of the time... then I not so bored... but it is not a really good idea to study in the bus cause feel a bit sick with the bus rocking here and there...

And yesterday when i had nothing to do on the way back home i thought of something really lame... I am really so blessed... i got eyes to see all the beautiful things, ears to hear all the nice songs and sounds of nature, taste to taste the wonderful food we have in singapore, smell to smell the different fragrances (though not all is nice eg. shit, shit shit, vomit, body odour of someone never bathe for a month) and i can feel ... feel the care other ppl have for me... and the different sort of feelings we feel as a person... haha... I AM REALLY TRULY BLESSED... So I must treasure all these for I never now when they will be gone after all life is so unpredictable... Life is really truly amazing...Haha... now alina just came into the lab and she asked me me how come i still have mood to write my blog am such a naughty gal... haha... ok i think i better go now... Haha... Bye Bye!!!

Hi... me studying in school for my bio test tomorrow... I am still stuck at Immunology... very hard to understand... Haha... there is still so much to study... But I believe if God brings me to it he will bring me through it... I CAN DO IT!!! This is something that got into my head as I was looking through my jie.. cyvia blog... Haha... somehow I feel very peaceful suddenly when I think of it...

Today me met up with Jacq (the loud mouth one) and Ai Fang in the e lab. Haha... Then i treat Jacq to chicken chop cause i owe it to her (as last time she help me to edit my law compo)... Haha.. then she say why I so nice to her... must have ulterior motive... (haha... please lah... I am such a nice girl ... what motive will I have )...

Today the weather is very cold... It rained throughout the day... And Jacqueline is telling me want to sing ktv or go Wild wild wet on friday after the last exam... but then... i want to watch princess diaries cause never watch moviein long time... Haha... but see first... i have to go thru these few days of torture first... Haha... Suddenly dunno wat to say already... Anyways good luck for my bio exam tomorrow!!! God Bless!!!