Hello... today I came to school early with Kavi... reached school around 10... This morning i feel so sleepy... I did not drink coffee... I drank tea but i think should be quite effective... haha... cause i dunno after this week if there is any more chances to go to school with Kavi this sememster... Anyways we had a nice talk and he told me he thought i did well for my sparring although my friend said i look like a chicken cannot fly... Haha... i wish sir suresh had commented on it... or i dunno whether he was busy vomiting blood...

Hmmm... Fionat, let me tell you something that my indian friend of mine told me ... you are nice and chirpy and everything... but he said something which i agree very much with... Sometimes you keep on harping and joking until very li hai until the other party will get irritated and in turn will start to ignore you... but it is not your fault actually so the irritation just accumalates in them and one day they will just ignore you completely or just scream there heads of one day... i dunno how to say this to you cause you are such a sweet girl and it is actually no fault of your own... Although you are my good friend sometimes i feel like getting away from you... Maybe a bit too overwhelming for me... I think you have this problem of ppl siaming you... cause you got tell me b4... I hope i never hurt your feeling... Fiona... you are someone very important to me.. so i want to be honest with you... cause you are actually my best friend... but then best friends will love and hate each other sometimes...

Ok... haha... i feeling pretty sleepy and blur now... Haiz... i hate being blur... i just feel so stupid... maybe i am (oh no... dun let negative thoughts come into my head)... I just hate it when ppl keep on harping that i am blur... cause it is as if i dun know myself... i dun need other ppl to laugh at it and bring me down... I feeling quite anxious now... cause i always so lazy to practice my pattern and have to do it again for tkd...

Just now me and kavi tried sparring... and i actually kicked him using the turning kick... he said my kick was very li hai... Haha... so farnie... i remember in sec. school i won him in arm wrestling... i wonder if i did it with him now would i still win him...

Ok now i waiting for jacqueline so we can discuss about the chalet thing... actually we sharing only to cut course... haha... but we seem to be having problems with who to invite... haha... cause its 2 different set of friends... haha... having it with her is so good... cause she is a good planner... and everything is budget budget for her... can save money like this...

Ok i think i better get back to my work... haha... need to study for psycho test on friday... haha... oh dear ... time passes so fast... i am growing old.. next week i am going for attachment... i am quite excited... though i am not smart i want to touch the hearts of my patients...

Yesterday on the way home my freind saw her sister of the ward from TTSH... I was very impressed with the sister cause she was so friendly... haha... my friend said as friendly as me cause i also like to smile alot...haha... but i told her my skills not very good... so i think i make a lousy nurse... but she said i will think of the patient first and will emphasize with the pain they are going through and offer words of encouragement and hold there hand when they are going through painful procedures , maybe is wat the patient need... haiz... wat else can i do... that is the least i can do... i hope i can be like that sister... smiling and so friendly and willing to help ppl... i think all the patients must love her... i think some of the nurses in my hospital are very task orientated and treat the patients like mannequins as if they cannot feel...

Anyways Fiona is having her test on N.G tubing ... hope you do well... I am pretty sure you can do it... you are a very intelligent girl... and hope you will will be successful in being with the one you loves... and this in turn will add on to your happiness... Hope you really find someone that deserves you...

Ok got to go...