Hi... now I just finish watching the show... 'Ren Wo Ao You' on channel 8... I really cannot stand one of the girls... such a hypocrite... She like the same guy as Fiona Xie then keep on wanting to snatch him away from her using underhand methods... In front of her she act like so nice but behind her she back stab her... Then she always jealous and very petty... haiz... This kind of friend I rather not have. if I was Toro I would also like Fiona Xie better... Haha... Haiz... isn't it sad... why must people be so narrow minded. But anyways i think the girl is a hypocrite cause she was brought up in that way... Her mother taught her must fight for wat ever she want no matter wat method... even if it means betraying the friendship... This makes me sad for her... Cause although she is smarter and more intelligent than Fiona Xie she is not as happy cause she is always thinking of ways to win ppl and is never satisfied... jealousy and hatred can sometimes consume a person and make the person to seem like someone different...

Last time I also had a close friend in secondary school... i thought she was genuinely nice to me so i tried to be a good friend to her... But i guess we were very different in alot of aspects... She was always hungry to get good results, be the top try to be good in everything... but i had no sense of urgency then i did things in my own time... Even when we paired up for some competition writing I never really write until i suddenly got alot of inspiration... Then I was always a very careless and clumsy person... so I think she got irritated with me... Up to know i dun understand her... I guess I never will... she seems like a nice person but she can talk bad about that person until very jia lat... like sometimes double faced... Alot of ppl told me she was talking bad about me but i did not really believe... cause we seemed to talk like normal... haha... Until one day after school in sec. 4 we were getting ready for ndp carnival and i just came back after lunch... i saw her with her back facing me talking to kavi who was towards my direction talking about me... i can't really remember wat she say but it was something like... "this jolyn... i really can't her... so irritating... everytime i talk to her i feel like slapping her..." then kavi was looking at me... then she just suddenly turn around and saw me then although she looked surprised i think she thought i never hear... i just smiled at her and went to the toilet... then when i went back and continued with the work on the carnival and me and my class mate had a bit of disagreement then i started tearing (cause i suddenly cannot control my tears of my friend back stabbing me)... then everyone thought is because of my class mate... But I just took my bag and rushed out of class room crying. The that 'friend' of mine came rushing after me and ask me wat happen and she will scold my class mate... my goodness!!! I cant believe she can be such a hypocrite and she even wanted to hug me... I just pushed her aside and just shouted at her 'Get lost... I dun need a friend like you!!!' I think she was quite shocked by my reaction. Then i know as i turned and left she was telling Kavi... 'wats my problem'... Haiz...

Maybe thats just her character... she cant control her mouth... cause i am not the only person she bad mouthed... but i am grateful i got to know about this... i dun dislike her... After that i did talk to her but maybe not as close... and i continue to be nice to her though i know she not very genuine... i guess this can be applied to the working world... we really hate working with some ppl but just for attaining a common goal we put aside personal feelings and work together... This is called professionalism i suppose... i guess god wants to put these kind of ppl in our life to make us stronger and know that in life there are definately ppl like these out there in the world... it is just inevitable... Haha... I am sure everyone has an experience like that... But dun let them get you down though it maybe be very hurting (especially if that person your close friend)... Maybe in that untruth there is some truth... I always believe in that... Then hopefully I can become a better person by reflecting... But if you believe all that the person is saying is all crap just treat it like "er bian feng"...Thank god for putting her in my life and letting me experience this...

Anyways b4 we left secondary school i told her i knew she was bad mouthing me in front of others... but we still agree to keep in contact (though we dun do that very often cause she has her own life and I have mine and we are all going very different paths in life)... anyways bless us in life journeys and may we learn and grow in life... If we never go through bad days how will we know to treasure good ones... treasure the beautiful things in life... like your good friends, family, pets, nice food... beautiful rainbows... nice scenary... nice television programmes... (haha... ok ... i shall stop her... i talking crap)