Haiz... today I dun enjoy working at all... I finally know what the ITE student meant when she said that everyday after work she would feel like she wanted to cry... Cause i feel the same way too... Furthermore she was in this ward for 5 weeks... I only here for 2 weeks... And I just learnt that you should not judge a book by its covers... sometimes the person that seems to treat you nice are not actually that nice... they could just stab you in the back or be the one talking behind your back... Haha... I feel like such a useless and hopeless nut case for being vulnerable to all these things... Haiz... but i find this world so bitter sometimes... but i guess i have to grow in it... No one said is easy right...Haha... Anyways i pray to God to give me the strength to face each new day... must be strong... but I am actually not as strong as i think i think... haha... dunno wat else to write already... maybe I just feel sort of lifeless from the start of the day thats why dun perform as well... haha... well hope tomorrow will be a happier day... and i will be a happier person tomorrow...

One of my patients told me she find me looking very happy, enthusiastic and give ppl a refreshed feeling... haha... i was quite shocked cause i was really tired just now...so even when i am tired i can make ppl happy... Then i told her my smile is not in the optimal condition today then she said never mind ... as long as the patients see me smile they feel more relieved already... I am actually quite shocked she said that to me cause she was quite a difficult patient to attend to and she always like to complain about almost anything... but she told me that... I think she is actually quite a nice person but she has a sharp tongue... Tomorrow I am working afternoon shift... There is this indian staff nurse in the same shift as me tomorrow... i really like her... from the first time i saw her i knew she was a nice person... and although i dun really talk to her she give me a very reassuring feeling... so happie... anyways i know she is a good nurse cause she has the green tag... only those nurses who get compliments from patients get green tags...
Anyways today i met senior staff nurse irene (ward 64) when i was in 7-11 and i was so happie to see her... She told me she hope one day will work with me again... I just love ward 64... we are like family... i will always remember my time in ward 64... she told me although is very busy in my ward now but i will learn alot of things which is true also... haha...
Haha... ok gtg now and study...