Thank you all my friends!!!
Haha... well to all those who miss me... I am back ... =)... Been down for a while but i can say I am back on my feet... I have realised I carry too much burden and rely too much on my own strength but now I know there is someone out there willing to share it with me and that is none other than my heavenly father God... I hope he still loves me even though sometimes I let him down... This kind of relationship is very hard to explain... but very real... Some of you might think this sort of relationship is ridiculous but I hope you respect my thoughts just as I respect yours... I can just say this is a very real feeling... Sometimes there need to be a stimulus to get us back to track... Haha.. I hope I can d o it... But then again... I am not alone... There are so many friends of mine out there... I am sure we will do it together...

Here is a story that Kavi told me yesterday... Everything happens for a reason... and maybe now we will look to the sky and question the almighty one up there but he has his reason(which we can't possibly understand) but he will show to us in his own time... So even when I feel so hurt and tired and carry lots of burdens I believe all this is for my good and I will benefit from it even though I grumble from time to time...
Jenny also sent me this verse... Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding and in all your ways acknowledge him and he will guide your heart and minds to Christ Jesus... When she sent it to me I did not really think much of it but then after a while I really got down to understanding the meaning....

Oh... and here is the story...
Foot Prints in the Sand

One night I dreamed a dream. I was walking along the beach with my Lord. Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene , I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonging to me and one to my Lord. When the last scene of my life shot before me I looked back at the footprints in the sand, there was only one set of footprints. I realized that this was the lowest and saddest times of my life. This always bothered me and I questioned the Lord about my dilemma. " Lord, you told me when I decided to follow you . You would walk and talk to me all the way . But I'm aware that during the most troublesome times of my life there is only one set of footprints. I just don't understand why, when I needed you most , you leave me ."
He whispered , " My precious child, I love you and will never leave you never never during your trials and testings . When you saw only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you."---Margret Fishback
God has said " Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you" ---Hebrews 13:5

To tell everyone the truth I have read this story many times but only now do i see the true meaning...

Haha... anyways I not trying to convert anyone or anything... I dun really believe in that... I just writing how I feel... I believe this kind of feeling is very personal and must be from your heart... And if anyone feels tired or full of burdens of the past I hope that you know that you are not the only one... I am sure although you may question "WHY???" but there is a reason for everything and hope you take things into stride... The past has gone and even if you hold on to it wat good can it do to you...Treasure the present and work hard for your future...

Haha... anyways tomorrow I have Biology Theory and practical test... and i am so NOT prepared.... Haha... but at leat i got study... Haha... thats the good news... I am really quite unprepared... But I made a few mind maps and I am quite proud of it... Maybe ppl cannot work by using mindmaps but maybe i am one of those weird ppl that can... haha... It all started in secondary school... So last time even when studying for my O levels eg... social studies, science... I was using mind maps... Haha... Actually I think it is a good way to study... haha...

Anyways... haha... i want to write more... but a bit lazy... If I ever see you my friends... I hope you happiness and if you do see me glum please try and make me smile... haha... isn't this world beautiful sometimes... haha... Bye