Today is a Saturday... I never do much... started off the day by slacking... never get to slack for such a long time so when I can slack I must enjoy every minute of it... haha.... Actually never eat or sleep well for the whole of this week... Cause of the immense stress and trials I had to overcome this week... But I thank God cause he wants to mould me into a strong person... Just like a diamond that is sooo strong cause it has undergone many trials and tests of time... Whatever it is , I believe time will tell.... I believe watever it is we have to enjoy wat we are doing... cause you never know when you will go off to whereever we suppose to go to...

I can't believe it... I slept for 12 hours last night... I have never slept for such a long period in such along time... I had a really horrible dream that my mother passed away... and my whole father and my sister did not care... In my heart maybe i am scared that will happen... cause i think my mother is not given the respect she ought to get... just because she was once a house wife... (thats why i never want to be one, maybe not get married too). Haha... then i remember in my dream everytime b4 eating i would talk to my mother's photo and tell her how much i miss her and how i wish i could be with her... then i think i cried during my sleep... i remember i got dream of other things but can't remember the content... When i woke up I just groggily went to check whether my mother was alive... haha... sometimes you can't differentiate truth from fantasy.

My mom made lunch for me... Salad... with lots of vegetables and even prawns... haha... and fruits... and a bit of home made mayonaise (my mother make one). Is nice to have some one to cook and care for you... cause i know the feeling of going home all alone and having to make all meals for yourself and all alone at home... Last time i used to be scared of the dark, but always being alone at home I not scared anymore... sometimes i imagine things or sense things but i know God will protect me in his loving hands... therefore i will not fear...

Am now listening to the Final Fantasy 8 song, "Eyes on me"... Haha... remember in sec. 2 or 3 i used to go to Fiona house every saturday... revise our school work (although we different school) then watch some japanese anime at the same time... remember Sakura - Card captor (i still have your comic... haha). Then she lent me her Final Fantasy 8 cd... haha... Up to now i still never finish playing FF8... and i remember my maths was better than yours... haha... but your chinese is superb... then i think we both sucky in science... but i know you took bio and like it... (I only take physics and chemistry). Then my literature was favorite.,... haha... cause i can always feel for the ppl in the poems or prose or text and can express exactly how they feel in words... haha... Those were my favorite days... when you staying nearby... and you taught me how to play badminton... Then i was super stiff... then I did arm wrestling with your sister and i won... haha (now my skills not so good already)... Those are nice memories... I wil keep them to the day of my death (hopefully I dun get dementia and forget everything)...

Anyways now I am here typing my blog. I am listening to this Fruit Basket song... Oh dear... Fruit Basket reminds me of something... Hahaha... Ok i shall try to forget it... anyways Fiona keep on pestering me to buy her Fruit basket for her b.d... i think i will just give her basket with lots of fruit inside... I really love the comic... the main character is really strong and i like her character... although she live alone she goes on with this will of life ... although she is not smart or bright and rather slow she make true friends along the way cause of her lovable character... haha... and she is cute... haha (actually who in jap. anime is not cute)... and got alot of guys like her...(this trait i dun have... haha).

Today I went to my father association... then we celebrated mid autumn festival... haha... ate bbq (which is not healthy cause got so much carcinogenic food cause of the way it is cooked... right over fire)... They did not even put anti carcinogenic agents like cucumber... I should tell them next time...and i saw ppl playing with lanterns and we ate moon cakes and drank tea... actually they are not the ppl i want to spend my time with so sort of not as interesting... And my brother forced me to drink wine.... My good ness it is so bitter... Wat is there to appreciate about wine...


And after that he asked me to drink glass of spirit... which is i think gin or wat... wow, that was strong, even though i put a bit of sprite inside... after that i felt so dazed a quite disorientated... haha... The thing i drank was really very strong.... good thing i got good tolerance... my sister said she vomited after drinking half a cup last time... Haha... anyways i think it is an experience... and they taught me some hand game.. she say next time at least i know how to play and wun get cheated into drinking if the occasion arises... haha... cause i think maybe she telling me this from her own experience (muhahaha... so evil of me to think of that) . Then after that we play a game in which we suppose to guess a chinese character... well i not good in that... haha... but my sister is... her chinese is like A1 calibre...

Overall today was a fun day... haha... although now my head a bit throbbing... hopefully i did not start talking nonsense to the ppl around me... no lah... i wun... i am soooo sensible...

Oh and I am pretty irritated... my friend told me I am a tomboy... but i got wear skirts... somemore they are sweet short even pink mini skirts... maybe is the way i talk or sometimes act... got someone tell me i will scare away the boys... haha... lets just say i am more active and sporty... yeah thats it... ok i think i manage to console myself... haha... ok... my brain feeling a bit tired now... good night...