Hello........ today I am feeling so happy and fulfilled... Actually this morning started off  in a really bad mood and I gave a scowling and super black face to everyone I saw... reason being is that it is the time of the month again.... when I get all moody and sensitive and emotional and depressed and can become really feirce if i am irritated...

Well on the way to work I told myself I must not bring my personal feeling or emotions to work... Must forget them all and give my patients all the love and care they really needed (cause it was not easy for them to be there in the first place)... Well it sure helped... I shall care for my "clients" (that wat we are suppose to call them) well being bio psycho socialy and make them feel at ease and comfortable as can be... maybe go and extra mile like buy for them newspaper to read or give them biscuits (provided no food restriction). Well my last day in the ward went pretty smoothly although it was super busy... I even had to dress wounds, do hypocount, change alot alot alot alot of pampers and it was literally a very shitty day but the thing is I feel happy doing it... My patients like me cause even when they ask me to do something like wipe there butts i can still do it willingly like its the most natural thing around... and that is wat matters in my job... that I do something for my "clients" and serve them to the fullest as how I would like to be served if I in that position... Some ppl may think that wat i do is dirty  but I still love wat I do... and nothing can change that...

There was this very nice HCA that was on duty in my room today... i thank god for her... she really encouraged me and taught me alot of things... Then she said I can become a good staff nurse in the future... and she also say I am very cheerful and always smile to my patients even when I am tired... And she said in the end this smile or word of encouragement can really "cure" the patient... she ask me whether I am a Christian and I say yes then she say no wonder... I dun think being a Christian has anything to do with being encouraging though...really...

Well I went back late cause i wanted to a do some last things for my patients... Like help them to the toilet one last time... change there clothes... do oral toilet ... and there was a new admission too so I had ask him lots of questions and measure his vital signs...

And I am really happy cause i saw 2 of the nurses from the Colo rectal ward come to our ward and they remembered me... and they actually taught me a few things too... Even the doctor today kept on smiling at me... dunno why... cause i think I kept on humming when I was working...

And there was this man that rather pissed me off... he refused to listen to anything me and my friend said... We were trying to change his pampers and in the end he insisted the staff nurse help him and told us we dun know anything... (For heavens sake ... we only changing pampers..) and in the end he was soooooooooooooooooo obedient to the staff nurse...

Well today was very fulfilling day and when i said good bye to all my patients they all were sad... haha... mostly lah... then they all wish me good luck in studies and to work hard... One of the patients who was rather confused said I was his angel... (errm... I am no angel...) and said no one would bother him now that i went away... (errm... remember the very unfriendly nurses that only work on the patient). Pretty sad cause i dunno whether he meant wat he said cause sometimes he forgot he was in the hospital...
Then another of the patients that I always voluntarily do dressing on his gangrene necrotic (black toes that look and feel like going to fall off) toes and finger that stink really badly... and I voluntarily do it everyday... was quite sad that I was leaving too... ( Boo hoo ... no body voluntarily do dressing on his smelly toes)

After work I popped by in burger king tampines and got a free mushroom double meal cause I used to work there if you dun know... Well... i find time passes so fast... Time cannot go back to last time so dun bother thinking about it I guess... Maybe sometimes can afford to be a bit nostalgic (but not too much)... What I must do is look towards the future and live for the day... thank God for every single day and for breathing life into me... And guess wat... i saw the young and dashing and sissy manager of Burger King    Haha... Thomas... well he is very good manager lah... And I remember last time I always enjoy working under him... But now that I think of it nursing is so much more tougher and challenging than working in burger king.... haha... I also saw Aunty Ah Lai and she was so happy to see me.......

When i cam  back home I saw my cousin amos.. he was working as a sales person and he was selling my mother this very expensive mattress... My mother not very interested but only bought it cause amos is her nephew... Well Amos is the same age as me but he dropped out of secondary school and is now working... and waiting for ns I think... i hope he will be successful... I realise all the very successful ppl dun get much education or drop out of school half way ... haha...

Then I saw Bin mei online and I talked to him for awhile... haha... well wat can I say... She is missing me... Har har har... and cannot wait to see me in school... haha... i feel so honoured and flattered... Hoo Hoo... Maybe next time can go out and watch movie (horror story) with fiona and bin mei and maybe some other ppl... har har har...

Well got to go now... tomorrow is my ushering day for ndp preview so got to sleep now... Bye...