Hello........ today I am feeling so happy and fulfilled... Actually this morning started off  in a really bad mood and I gave a scowling and super black face to everyone I saw... reason being is that it is the time of the month again.... when I get all moody and sensitive and emotional and depressed and can become really feirce if i am irritated...

Well on the way to work I told myself I must not bring my personal feeling or emotions to work... Must forget them all and give my patients all the love and care they really needed (cause it was not easy for them to be there in the first place)... Well it sure helped... I shall care for my "clients" (that wat we are suppose to call them) well being bio psycho socialy and make them feel at ease and comfortable as can be... maybe go and extra mile like buy for them newspaper to read or give them biscuits (provided no food restriction). Well my last day in the ward went pretty smoothly although it was super busy... I even had to dress wounds, do hypocount, change alot alot alot alot of pampers and it was literally a very shitty day but the thing is I feel happy doing it... My patients like me cause even when they ask me to do something like wipe there butts i can still do it willingly like its the most natural thing around... and that is wat matters in my job... that I do something for my "clients" and serve them to the fullest as how I would like to be served if I in that position... Some ppl may think that wat i do is dirty  but I still love wat I do... and nothing can change that...

There was this very nice HCA that was on duty in my room today... i thank god for her... she really encouraged me and taught me alot of things... Then she said I can become a good staff nurse in the future... and she also say I am very cheerful and always smile to my patients even when I am tired... And she said in the end this smile or word of encouragement can really "cure" the patient... she ask me whether I am a Christian and I say yes then she say no wonder... I dun think being a Christian has anything to do with being encouraging though...really...

Well I went back late cause i wanted to a do some last things for my patients... Like help them to the toilet one last time... change there clothes... do oral toilet ... and there was a new admission too so I had ask him lots of questions and measure his vital signs...

And I am really happy cause i saw 2 of the nurses from the Colo rectal ward come to our ward and they remembered me... and they actually taught me a few things too... Even the doctor today kept on smiling at me... dunno why... cause i think I kept on humming when I was working...

And there was this man that rather pissed me off... he refused to listen to anything me and my friend said... We were trying to change his pampers and in the end he insisted the staff nurse help him and told us we dun know anything... (For heavens sake ... we only changing pampers..) and in the end he was soooooooooooooooooo obedient to the staff nurse...

Well today was very fulfilling day and when i said good bye to all my patients they all were sad... haha... mostly lah... then they all wish me good luck in studies and to work hard... One of the patients who was rather confused said I was his angel... (errm... I am no angel...) and said no one would bother him now that i went away... (errm... remember the very unfriendly nurses that only work on the patient). Pretty sad cause i dunno whether he meant wat he said cause sometimes he forgot he was in the hospital...
Then another of the patients that I always voluntarily do dressing on his gangrene necrotic (black toes that look and feel like going to fall off) toes and finger that stink really badly... and I voluntarily do it everyday... was quite sad that I was leaving too... ( Boo hoo ... no body voluntarily do dressing on his smelly toes)

After work I popped by in burger king tampines and got a free mushroom double meal cause I used to work there if you dun know... Well... i find time passes so fast... Time cannot go back to last time so dun bother thinking about it I guess... Maybe sometimes can afford to be a bit nostalgic (but not too much)... What I must do is look towards the future and live for the day... thank God for every single day and for breathing life into me... And guess wat... i saw the young and dashing and sissy manager of Burger King    Haha... Thomas... well he is very good manager lah... And I remember last time I always enjoy working under him... But now that I think of it nursing is so much more tougher and challenging than working in burger king.... haha... I also saw Aunty Ah Lai and she was so happy to see me.......

When i cam  back home I saw my cousin amos.. he was working as a sales person and he was selling my mother this very expensive mattress... My mother not very interested but only bought it cause amos is her nephew... Well Amos is the same age as me but he dropped out of secondary school and is now working... and waiting for ns I think... i hope he will be successful... I realise all the very successful ppl dun get much education or drop out of school half way ... haha...

Then I saw Bin mei online and I talked to him for awhile... haha... well wat can I say... She is missing me... Har har har... and cannot wait to see me in school... haha... i feel so honoured and flattered... Hoo Hoo... Maybe next time can go out and watch movie (horror story) with fiona and bin mei and maybe some other ppl... har har har...

Well got to go now... tomorrow is my ushering day for ndp preview so got to sleep now... Bye...

Hello... today I am feeling so sick. I was finding it so hard to work... Furthermore I was doing morning shift and it was very busy... My fever shot up to 38 degrees but now better... Cause when I come home I went straight to sleep... It is now 37.4 degrees now... Haha... Hope I will be better tomorrow...

Hello... I am back in school... After a long tiring week of working it sure feels good to put my legs up to rest... I really need to put them up... I have been standing too long and I dun want to get varicose veins... They are very ugly... So I must try to elevate my legs to relieve the veins from forming... 

Today I had morning shift... it was actually quite an ok day... Nothing really bad happened... Haha.. thank god.. I really prayed b4 working like Minto told me too,... I really love taking care of my patients ... Haha... No matter how reluctant i am to wake up to go to work in this ward i must still do it... on the way to my ward I saw Sandra, another of the Health care assisstant from Ward 64. Even the HCA in that ward are so willing to teach and so knowledgable... Haha... I was really happy to see her and she did make me happy a fair bit...

Today, I was not so blur in this ward as I was more used to this ward routinethan b4... haha... When I go there I know straight away have to give them gargle.. Haha... Then I was put in the other room opposite. The nurse there was nicer... Haha.. And he is really willing to teach... I was in a good mood today so I can naturally absorb better... Haha... Anyways I think I do the bed bath and shower baths really slow... I believe tyhat if you want to do something must do properly and try your best... Dun just anyhow do... Haha...

After all the bed bath and showering I had to feed one of the patients... He was a bit mentally unsound I have to say... With a habit at scratching and spitting at the nurses... The nurse there told me he was actually ok b4 but one day he went to the cemetary and something happened to him that made him become so insane... Feeding him required alot of patience... His body was so limp and his head and had no support... Even his head to be supported... I had to feed him a soft diet of oats and soft boiled eggs... but I think I took about an hour standing there trying to feed him... Why i was so persistant... They say that if he did not eat anymore they would insert a N.G tube and I know tube insertion is very uncomfortable... Good thing I manage to feed him 3/4 of his meal... Sometimes when I feed him he would spit it out... and in the end had to change his pyjamas again... A group of student doctors came to see him... and they tried helping me reposition the patient as he kept on shifting... I think I had to change his bib and use a bunch of tissues as he was spilling food everywhere including playing with it... Haha... actually wanted to observe one of the enrolled nurse doing dressing on a chest tube sight... But this is also part of my job... It really trains my patience...

After that the day went farely fast... I was sent back to my own room... I did Oro- pharyngeal suctioning on a person with a tracheostomy...cause he had lots of phlegm in his throat and I had to suction it out... When I was doing it I refuse to look at the patients face cause it was really uncomfortabl... I know he was in pain but there is nothing much I can do.. Because I know if i dun do the suctioning the patient would feel worse on long term basis.. After that the patient thank me cause he felt more comfortable and signaled to me that I did a good job... Actually this is the first time i do Oro pharyngeal suctioning... I mean I learnt it in school but I never reallly do it on a real person... But there was this nice staff nurse that was willing to guide me... haha... Thanks to that staff nurse...

This ward is really busy and I only went for break at 12... i suppose to go at 10 something... There is alot of charting and documentation to be done... The good thing is that when I went for my break I found out Alina had bought lunch for me and even had a drink ready for me in the fridge... so caring...haha... (ACTUALLY i LSO DO THE SAME THING TO HER)... In the staff room Amy and me had a nice talk about our comments on this ward and I think now we are closer (since she is my partner for this attachment... haha... ok... I have to go for my taekwondo class liao... haha...

Anita sent me another very encouraging message...
Whenever you're down
always remember
you are braver than you believe
stronger than you seem
and smarter than you think
Keep on smiling! I'm with you!

Hi everybody... haha... I know I have not been blogging for a long time... As I am very busy with attachment nowadays. Anyways this is one of the worst ward I have been to... The staff are not friendly... well maybe 1/5 of them are ok... The ward is very busy as it is c class medical but I had quite alot of bad experiences with the nurses... One of the enrolled that I thought was nice sort of back stabbed me and my friend in front of our lecturer... The worst thing is that we sort of did not know we being made use off... Haiz... i am very disappointed with this world sometimes... But this  thing inside me says I must not be depressed... Although I feel very much like crying and giving up... (Life and reality is really harsh) and sometimes I wonder how a blur sotong like me can overcome it... So I tell myself that if something bad happens to me I must emerge stronger and smile even brighter than b4... I really tried very hard not to let my mood be brought down by the ppl there and show my happy and cheerful face to the patients but sometimes it can be a bit overwhelming... Another of the enrolled nurse always show an attitude face whenever the nyp students ask her questions... and whenever she got work always pass to the ite students...(probably jealous cause when we pass out we higher rank than them) until I feel no interest in learning in this ward... Haiz...

I MUST and CAN do it... I must smile even harder even when things dun as expected ... I want to be trained until i am immune to all these obstacles and wun let it affect me...

Throughout the week I have received sms from a few ppl who really encouraged me... I would like to acknowledge the,,,

The first is Anita, Kavi's sister... I really respect her alot cause I find her a really smart and quick witted... haha... worth learning from ( I only mention her good points... haha)

Well, b4 I came to this ward I already heard alot ofbad things about this ward from her and that she had a bad experience in this ward...
I told her on the first day of work I already dun really like the ward
And she told me," Dun get depressed. Just do your best and hack care those staff that bully you. When they grow old they see whether they want to be treated lik that... Jia you!!!"
"Dun stress yourself . Not everybody can be as lively as us. So take things into your stride and learn as much as u can."
"Each fall is a step to success"

Another one is Charis when I told herI dun think I can be a good nurse cause i think I am very blur and forgetful...
"What make a nurse truly good is there kindness and caring nature... Everything else can be trained... Haha... (dunno how true that is)

The last person I would like to thank is one of the nurses in ward 64 (my previous ward)... She is really nice and encourage me alot during my attachment in the ward... (everyone in ward 64 was very nice and show excellent service to patients)
She said, " Dear friend,  don't worry. You tried to work hard when you in ward 64 and everyone became your friend. My dear, choo li shan, you are very good. Pray to God then do your work punctually"
When I received her message there were tears that came down... She had so much faith in me... Even last time when I told her i dun think i can become a good nurse she said I can cause I am very friendly to patients (sometimes that is not enough) and hard working... She has so much faith in me yet i dun have any in myself... My dear Minto... I want to be as  good as nurse as you... Although we only knew each other for 2 weeks but you have left a very lasting impression on me...

Hello... today I am feeling so tired... I had to drag myself out of bed... I am also not in a very smily mood today,,, I can't belive I had to take a 1 hour bus ride just for a stupid 50 minute lecture... But Biology is very important and I dun want to ask other ppl to scan my card when I am not there... I dun want to make it a habit as I am a good girl... Haha!!! Our Bio lecture was on the male reproductive system... After Bio lesson the rest of my class decided to book the clinical lab to practice the BCLS... I decided to give it a miss... I am really physically and mentally tired today... It Is not that I think I am very good as I pass the test that I dun want to practice with you all but I am really really tired today... My legs are really acheing and I really need to rest... So I hope you all forgive...

I am now listening to a song my friend introduced me by Fan Wei Qi... Haiz... is so melancholic and making me depressed... No!!! I will change the song to a happy one... Haha!!!

Yesterday the Taekwondo practice was fun but tiring... Haha... we ended at 9.45 and by the time I went home it was 11... I dun think I got enough rest...Anyways I shall end here for the day...

Today when i woke up I was feelin so anxious for my BCLS test (I had too much Gaba Amino Butryic Acid being produced)... I told my mother and she told me to be confident and that she would pray for me during the time I had the test... On the way to school I was also contemplating whether to revise through the notes but decided not to (it would only make me feel more nervous)... On the way to school I saw Anita (Kavi's sister) and I told her i was feeling very worried for the test... She told me last time when she did the test she had to do 3 attempts b4 passing and she told me not to be afraid of failure... I was a bit consoled... Anyways I think Anita is a very nice person to talk to... Haha!!! We keep on being sarcastic to each other... Haha!!!

Anyways there is something I cannot accept... I PASSED all the 5 modules for the BCLS (Basic Cardiac Life Support). When I did one-man CPR I suppose I was very lucky as I got one of the nicer teachers... She told me my compression was good but my ventilation was too much +++... my timing was also ok... She was contemplating on whether to pass me or fail me... I saw her discussing with one of the teachers (Alan tan) whether to pass me or fail me... That Alan tan looked at me and said " Huh... so small size got so much breath"... Haha!!! In the end she passed me and told me for the 2 man CPR not to be so gan jiong and control my ventilation... When I went out I found out all the ppl who had done CPR at the same time as me all failed... Even Jenny and Richard (I am quite surprised as I think they are much better than me)... Only 2 or 3 ppl passed one-man CPR and I was one of them!!! I was feeling so guilty... Like i did not deserve to pass...

Anyways next was Adult Choking... Mdm Kiu (the cattish woman) was the one that assessed me... haha... As last time she was my clinical teacher I knew she was very strict in clinical work and she asked me so many question...Most of the question I knew how to answer and the skills was farely ok... In the end she told me I really knew my work... haha!!! Anyways it was nice seeing her again...

Next was infant cpr and choking... The person assessing me was called Tand Siew Hua... she was quite nice and farnie... When I made mistake she told me she want to hang herself... haha!!! My infant choking was ok (i did not bang the baby's head when doing the sandwich position... Thank God!!!) Haha... but my Infant CPR was a bit slow... thats wat she told me... haha!!! The baby already die liao... haha!!!

Lastly was my 2 man CPR... I had to with someone I dun really know... so we did not really coordinate well... Haha... but anyways i think it was partly my fault... haha... then my compression for that time was also not very good... the teacher said I like got no more strength and keep on bending my elbows... haha... and i look like very farnie... haha... Anyways she told me to take the retest and come back on Friday but I just went for the remedial class for a while and went back to take the retest as the assessors were free... Haha!!! In the end I got the Tang Siew Hua again... haha... she looked so shocked to see me... I actually wanted to wait for Eveline as I practiced with her during rememdial class but the assessor told me to get just anyone from other class... haha... we had quite alot of coordiantion...

So i cleared the BCLS module... alot of my other friends doing the retest on Friday... I wish them all the best... God Bless... later on at 6.30 to 9.30 I have taekwondo practice... haha... feel so exhausted from all the blowing and compressing... haha... Ok got to go now...

Haha... I heard this very nice song by 无印量品 called 身边


坐在你的身边是种满足的体验
看你看的画面 过你过的时间
天也晴了花也开了微风也沉醉
虽然你不说话 却也早已万语千言

分分秒秒显得清澈又珍贵
只有你才能给我这种感觉
不管心多疲倦 梦想还有多远 有你陪伴一切都无所谓

我要陪你擦拭每个昨天 相片日记书签 有暖意慢慢浮现
我要用默默的体贴 让你睁开双眼 看见昨夜梦想都实现
我也愿意帮你打扫房间 把身体好好锻炼 好让你觉得安全
让你记得我的优点 无论任何时间
对我非常想念 非常想念
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坐在你的身边是种满足的体验
看你看的画面 过你过的时间
天也晴了花也开了微风也沉醉
虽然你不说话 却也早已万语千言

分分秒秒显得清澈又珍贵
只有你才能给我这种感觉
不管心多疲倦 梦想还有多远 有你陪伴一切都无所谓

我要陪你擦拭每个昨天 相片日记书签 有暖意慢慢浮现
我要用默默的体贴 让你睁开双眼 看见昨夜梦想都实现
我也愿意帮你打扫房间 把牌技好好演练 陪你母亲打八圈
为你写下盈泪诗篇 感觉就像触电
才会对我想念 非常想念
...............................................
我要陪你擦拭每个昨天 相片日记书签 有暖意慢慢浮现
我要用默默的体贴 让你睁开双眼 看见昨夜梦想都实现
我也愿意帮你打扫房间 帮你的爸爸戒烟 帮你兄弟姐妹买早点
让你时刻觉得很炫 无论任何时间
对我非常想念 非常想念

Today I had classes at 8 am... I was so tired this morning and slept on the bus on the way to school... I kept on bumping on the window when I was sleeping and in the end i ended up sleepier and groggier when I came off the bus... My head also feel a bit pain (I bet if I shaved my head I would see lots of blue blacks). On the way to school abt 6.30 I watched this very nice jap. anime on tv mobile (it seems nice but I dun know the name). I also ate this really nice egg roll (something like love letters) that my sister bought from Japan (it is much nicer than love letters). I love the way it crunches in my mouth and the texture is really nice and crunchy. There is also a bit of vanilla essence in it... I find Japanese are very meticulous in packaging... The box of egg roles was wrapped in wrapping paper. Inside the box there was another layer of paper covering the egg roles... furthermore each egg role was packaged nicely in plastic.... WOW!!! My sister also bought chewing gum for me (sour plum flavour). It tastes weird but anyways it is the thought that counts... Haha...

In a few days time is my sister's birtheday... We are very practical ppl so i just gave her a hong bao... She was very happy cause she said recently she broke... she say she prefer ppl to give her money... Haha... we are both of the same kind... I really love my sister even though she can be very bad tempered... Haha!!! She is a real role model...

When I came to school I had a 1 and half lecture on Nursing Law and Ethics... I could barely keep my eyes open and slept for half the lecture... Our class has this assignment to select ppl to take part in the debate... I actually was not suppose to be in as we drew lots and I got the lot for doing the written assignment but in the end Jenny ask me take part in the debate... I am a bit reluctant... but no choice... My friends they all say my english is good and I have better chance of rebutting others... and sometimes I can talk like a train not allowing ppl to butt in... -____-".... I only know Fiona would be much better in debate than me cause no body can win her in conversations... So i never bother try winning a topic with her cause i know I surely lose... haha... my shi fu wat... Anyways i am a bit scared that debate that day I will be tongue tied... our topic is we suppose to oppose abortion... haha... The othe teams all have very extrovert ppl and ppl able to express themselves... haiz... just wish for the best...

Next we had practice on BCLS again... I am a bit worried as tomorrow is my test... wat if I fail... haiz... cause got one of the classes did the test already and 3/4 of the class failed one man CPR... Haiz... today i did the one man cpr and I was so frustrated... I sometimes can get the right landmark for chest compression but sometimes I keep shifting my hand... Then after a while of compressing I will start beding my elbow... HOW MANY TIMES DID I TELL MYSELF TO LOCK THEM!!! as for the ventilation my friends say I blew too much air +++... Haha.... Must try to relax... Ok got to go for lessons now...

Hello... Today I woke up grudingly to go to school to do my BCLS practice... I think I have at least practised for all aspects of the test. It is just I am a bit worried about the compressing part... I compressed until my wrist became a bit swollen. I know sometimes I use my hand power instead of body power to compress. I shall try to correct my mistakes. I am also scared that during the test I will compress on the wrong location. During the test they will cover up the meter for showing whether we are compressing on the correct position and how much strength we use, so I am worried that halfway though the test I will suddenly shift my hand and unknowingly compress on the wrong area... and this will in turn cause me to fail my BCLS practical... I am also a bit worried for 2-man CPR cause I am doing the CPR with someone I dunno and 2-man CPR requires alot of coordination. If the testing is according to our class number, then it is either the person in front or behind me. Unfortunately the ppl in front and behind are 2 new repeat students and I have not really work with them yet...
As for baby choking I am a bit concerned about the "sanwich" position cause it is not very stable to flip the baby on my knee, head facing down... I am scared that will drop the which would be a straight fail. I must tell myself to be more gentle... Haha... But I thot I am already gentle...

P.S. When doing sandwich position must not hit baby head against trolley or table...

I actually prefer these extra clinical lessons than the normal lessons cause less ppl will come therfore we have more chance to practice. Alina said that she feel very inferior to Brenda and Jacqueline... I hope she understands that we dun expect her to be better or anything and dun compare herself to Brenda (although I know she is very clinically competant). Whatever it is we can always practice together. I hope she dun compare herself to other ppl cause is really quite a miserable feeling... I know cause I have to admit I also compare myself with other ppl. One case is recently I have been very envious of one of my class mates called Jiang Yan... Haha... She is really pretty with nice skin, nice figure and beautiful long silky hair, and she learns really fast and is very intelligent (She is like top in alot of subjects as she has really good memory) . Furthermore she in in those chinese cultural dance group so I find her really graceful (I bet she can do splits). Last semester I was the leader but I nominated her as the leader this semester cause I think she will really make a good leader (Haha... not like me). But I have to say I really envy her. i know she is not perfect but when standing next to me I feel I just blend in with the back ground... I mean I dun have nice silky hair... I always have that tom boy sort of hair and I dun find myself intelligent, just hard working at the right time... (b4 exams???), my memory is really short term until I suspect I will get dementia soon and forget everything (touch wood). In the clinical setting I got work with Jiang Yan before... I find her to be so superb in her skills wheras mine are only average... I only good at entertaining patients if you ask me...(dun include feeding, changing pampers but who can't do that). But in spite of all this I sincerely hope she will be a good leader and I will definately help her if she needs it... Sometimes I can tell my friends not to feel inferior to other ppl... but I myself dun practice that... So I must practice wat I preach. I am Jolyn Choo and I am someone special and unique... hehe

I read a comic book called Fruit Basket... In the book it said something that everybodys good points are written on a piece of paper stuck at the back of the person... Supposing Person A himself cannot see his good points but he can always see Person B good points and in turn will envy the person for his good points. But Person B envies Person A character. So I tell myself from now on I shall try not envy other ppl points but according to my timing I shall one day nurture and discover some of my own... I think I have good characteristics... Hopefully...Haha

Ok I am damn tired... I could have gone on and on... Everybody thank God that I did not...

Hello everyone... today is my 3rd day of school... Wednesday is the most relaxing day of the week... Today I only had one lecture and one tutorial... So I only had lessons from 8 to 10... We had Biology lecture where we are learning on the topic of the Reproductive system... Currently I am learning on the female repro system... I think it is quite amusing how the system changes from b4, during and after pregnancy... The teacher also showed us this very disgusting picture of a prolapsed uterus... which sometimes happens happens to women who carry alot of weight or after pregnancy. The uterus literally goes through the vagina... It is really very disgusting looking... Anyone want to see the picture I can try to find the picture to show you all... Actually I got alot of things to say but no mood to write... Haha...

Hi everyone.... =) Today I went to school to buy my lecture notes... Cause i dun want to have to queue up on Monday and stress the photocopy shop aunty... She is already very stressed on normal days... I know she can be very mean at times if she is stressed so sometimes i try joking with her... Haha...

Last night I had a very nice sleep... Never slept so well in such a long time... It is really a joy to be able to sleep cause some ppl in hospital get admitted for sleep disorders... I hope I will always be able to sleep well and have nice dreams... haha. I think no matter how troubled you are or stressed up as long as you try sleeping and wake up slighty more refreshed you will be in a better state of mind to solve problems... Problems won't go away but if you rest our mind hopefully you can find a solution...

I was actually thinking of visiting Mr Singh (one of my patients) at his house but I thot otherwise as I was carrying lots of lecture notes... Today i met up with Alina to buy the notes... but i almost came a hour late cause I overslept (Hoo Hoo) but Alina is always very forgiving and kind. She said she went off to the e plaza to read over her e lectures

I have just found out that this year, year one students only have one module of Biology per semester... Unlike our year they had to squeeze 2 modules of Bio in one Semester... all thanks to SARS... Well, wat I can say is it is good training for us... Haha

Today is my LAST day of attachment!!! I am really relieved... not that I hate attachment or anything it is just after 4 long weeks during my holidays I sort of feel exhausted... Our class had break first, then attachment... I personally like it better if we have attachment first, then break... Then at least when i go back to school I will be more refreshed... Haha... Now I feel tired in all aspects... I better rest during the week and restore all my former energy otherwise I cannot face year 2...

This morning on the bus i saw Kavi's sister, Anita on the bus again... Haha... I talk to her and I got learn quite a few things from her... She told me she is excused from attachment today as she is senior student mentor for orientation... haha... I should have accepted the offer to be student mentor then i can skip my attachment ... haha... last time my class chairman got ask me whether I want to be one, but at that time i was mentally stressed as I was the project sub group leader and I was nearly almost dying... Haha... Then I was thinking if I haf become student mentor I would hopefully be in charge of fiona's class... haha... that will be sweet won't it...=)

This morning it rained... i remember last year during orientation it rained in the morning of the orientation... I went to orientation with my sec. school friends Verna and Violet... and on the way I made friends with there friend Taufiq... ( I wonder how Fiona is... i hope she can make friends with her class mates...) When I went to my new poly we were all seperated into different lecture theatres. All I know I was in the same lecture theatre as some one that had been in the same class as me for 4 years in secondary school... Her name is Qian Ru and we dun really talk to each other much... Can't seem to be able to talk to her... (haha... off topic liao)... Then i was really blur... I got lost trying to find toilet... I remember we were made to line up in our groups... That was the first time i saw Alina... i think she was the first to come or wat... (as usual). Then we just intro ourself for awhile and kept on smiling at each other... we did not know we in the same group at that time... After that I went off to the lecture theatre leaving her behind . In the lecture theatre the person sitting beside me was called Chan... My first impression is that she was not very friendly as she never even smile once when I spoke to her... I did not know she was an enrolled nurse working in IMH and she trained to be fierce looking... haha... I was quite bored as the only person beside me was Chan to talk to as I came super early... I got talk to my student mentor who was very friendly... Then I ask her all the things about my time table and she tell me about all about her attachment ... i was so fascinated... I found out Alina was in the same class as me but she kept on talking to eveline and I was seperated by Chan... so I ended up talking to the ppl behind me (I can't remember who they are).

When the program started and they started distributing all the free goodies such as thermometer I remember Alina kept on helping me (Do wat... i also cannot remember) My first impression is that she is a very helpful and sweet girl (I still think so). I think our year orientation program was very boring as it was affected by SARS and all the students cannot gather in the Auditorium... (at that time it was also under renovation)... We even had to watch this 20 minute show on medical handwashing... haiz... SARS period...

During lunch we ate in the Canteen... that was the time I really got to talk to other ppl... I realised that there were alot of ppl from China from my class and i talk to them mostly as they were very quiet and looking quite lost... When i was eating the person across me was Hafiz (the would be class chairman... haha.... we sabo him). I thought he was so sweet as he helped distribute all the food... I found him very soft and helpful ( easy to bully type... I still think the same way). Then after we all finish eating he helped the aunty clear all the boxes of finished food and clean the table... i saw him so poor thing how can I not help... Haha... Everytime we enter somewhere he would always hold the door for all of us and would be the last to enter... At that time I remember i just commented if i have a son, I want my son to be like him... funny rite... but true... someone with good up bringing...

When the student mentor was bringing us across the school I was trying to talk to everyone in my class... some were friendly, some were cold... some I could talk alot of stuff with them... some I could not even think of wat to say... haha... i remember Jenny got tell me she found me so sociable and cute as if I knew all of them... haha... but I really cannot remember jenny during the orientation ... only vague memories of certain events...

Then our whole of group 30 (the "last" group) went to a room where we intro ourselves... We suppose to tell nursing is our what number choice and the classic question - why we join nursing...(Sometime I really dun know wat to say when ppl ask me that question cause i answer too many times)... I only can say I never regret putting it as my first choice even though my parents at first dun really like it... (Maybe the classic question I will answer some day in my blog). Haha... There are alot of events during orientation that i forgot but I really formed some bonds back then already... I also feel the same as Fiona... My class is sort of seperated into 2 groups... the quiet and the more outgoing one... I can't say i belong to any cause I believe in flitting here and there once in a while... I mean we are all one class... i think wat group we are in and wat ppl there are is not for us to pick but at the most we can do is make the most of it... cause whether or not we like it... we are stuck there with them... I hope my friend Fiona will not be too affected by wat happen in J.C last time and just move on with life... Remember if you really cannot mix around with your class at least you still have me... Haha... Your senior... muhahaha... another word of advice is i hope you write you own story for this new chapter of your life and dun let the main character give up... haha... I dun really know wat I saying... i sleepy already...

Hello, today was quite a good day at work... Only I feel a bit troubled cause my mother keep on complaining to me about my father that he keep on taking her money... I do not know wat to say... cause my father is also taking my money... I know he really needs it as he want to bring his mother to GuangZhou one more time to see her brother living there b4 she dies... My father took a few thousand from my bank account. He said he might return it but it actually does not matter to me as long as he leaves enough for my school fees... cause I think money can always be earned back...I know he will considerate enough as not to take all...