Hello... today I feel kind of confused. When i wake up I felt as if there were alot of things on my mind but I dun exactly know wat they are... Haha... I know I already blog this morning but I suddenly feel like writing... I was talking to my secondary school friend that just came back from a mission trip... Then she said she really enjoyed it seeing the new believers come to Christ... It reminded me that some time back another friend, Jenny ask me whether I can consider going for a mission trip but instead is by a team of health care providers that give basic healthcare such as dressing etc... to villages in poor countries... In terms of skill I think I am not up to standard but i am sure that can be improved... I feel as if I really want to go over and help out cause these ppl really need help. However it is a mission trip... I always thought in a mission trip you suppose to act all holy and start preaching and bring ppl to God... I think I am so uncapable of that... My faith in God is also not very strong I find and sometimes I find it wavering... I feel if I want to go on a mission trip I must be strongly convicted... Either I believe fully or dun believe at all... If I go for this mission trip I know the Lord will not be happy cause I do not go with the right heart. I also feel sometimes I am drifting away from God...