Hello.... How are you all... Today I woke up and played Fairy Land. I joined some clan. Haha... but my level still very low... I wanna become a martial artist. Fiona is a Acolyte of Light (that uses white magic). She says she used to be a lousy one but I think she is rather powerful now... Haha...
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Its funny when I am playing she is not playing and when she is playing I am not playing... I hope her friend (Cerinade) will come back cause she seems love sick (like a wife waiting for her husband to return) Haha... In fact they are engaged to be married (in the game that is). I shall give them my blessings... Haha... Then I met my nursing friend Verna in fairy land and she very happy cause she just finish her attachment and starting holidays> As for me It is the reverse...

Yeah... I feel pretty happy to start attachment but I feel time flies very fast when you are enjoying yourself... I dun want my student years to pass cause I think as a student there is still alot of free time and enthusiasm. But as a working adult after doing the job for many years I am scared I will lose the enthusiasm I started out with... (If that happens I would probabaly put myself in A and E or something). Although as a student you are bombarded with assignments and projects it is still fun and you still have a bit of the sheltered feeling that you feel in schools... When you are working, it is like you have to stand on your own 2 feet and must be independent, must be tactful in situations cause you in the frontline and nurses are the one that come in contact the most so even if you are nervous you must hide it. Doctors actually are very busy and come at ungodly times of the day to observe or see the patient then they will explain to the patient or the family members. Usually the patients dun understand wat the doctors say so the nurses have to listen as well and explain to the patient in simple terms...

There was once I did last office (cleaning of the body)for the first time in the cancer ward during chinese new year eve. The staff nurse that I assisted told me to clean the body like a normal person... I felt pretty weird (can't really understand the feeling). I even got warm water to sponge the patient and gently scrubbed her. She was all cold and stiff and when i tried closing her eyes it would not close so I just said "Auntie, please rest in peace" then said a silent prayer. After a while it closed. There was this unbearable smell from the body but it was not really affect me. What affected me was that the few days b4 I had bathed that patient and even talked to her... Though she was weak and never reply me in words or anything but she did smile at me. I even sang her chinese new year songs behind the curtains... After that incident I was in a really in a bad state of mind and even scowled at one of my friends when she asked me something... I just wanted to be left alone, unfortunately it was still the beginning of the day and I still had lots of work to do and working in the cancer ward most of the patients were depressed. I took a short toilet break and reflected... In the end I told myself that although I could not do much for the deceased, I must try to help and comfort those who had not yet died and I must not give up on them... So I went back a happier person in my heart. I did not find the need to cry... Why cry... It won' really get me anywhere...(but some times I do feel like a choked up sink... Haha). My happy times are when I have finish all my work I will go from the first bed to the last in the ward and start talking to the ppl... You can learn lots of stuff... Ok =, I got tonnes to say but little time. Hope I enjoy my attachment...

And pray for my friend fiona that she can get a sponsorship for nursing... I know she really wants to get in... Have to go now...