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Holidays in progress... Trying to make it fun filled and exciting. But then again it seems pretty boring. So i spend my time doing more volunteer work, watching more tv, knitting, sometimes going out with friends, spending time with my brother. We even planned on going night fishing. Just hope we carry out our plans. The weather is damn lousy... Yesterday I think I was under the sun too long and i had a massive headache. Its the kind of weather that you dun really feel like going out... Haiz.


Anyways yesterday i went to the safra gym for the first time and did some work out on my shoulders and stomach muscles. i also ran about 3 km on the treadmilll... I think I prefer running around bedok reservoir but running on the treadmill is definitely more effective. Its a bit stressful cause u can't stop even if you are very tired. Anyways its a first time experience in the gym lah... I am a member of the school gym but i never seem to able to find the time to go...



Later going to my aunt's house with my mum. I figured might as well go out and visit those ppl i have not seen for quite some time... Later after that maybe go to the bank and make a new atm card (the old one broke into 2) and after that go for tkd (speaking of which, i never go back for a gazillion years). Feel a bit guilty for not going back , truthfully. But also feel damn lazy... someone stop that sinful thought!!!


Then tomorrow will be another busy day for me.. got volunteering for the Green campus day in school after which i which i can hopefully go to lianna's house (she invited us) to eat at her house (so sweet of her right), then i got cell in the evening at pei li house. Well, to have more programs is better than nothing on... so i should be grateful!

Exams over... can't believe it... I am so happy!!! Been packing my books all all my stuff and throwing away alot of things. I did not know I got so many things accumulated since year 1.

Up to now I still dunno what I have done.. well actually i do and i suppose and it all sparks from me sometimes not using enough common sense. Sometimes i hate myself for the way i am... My friend always tells me to love myself but events always make me feel that i am really not so lovable myself. In front of that person I try to be apathic (its generated over the years). Even when he says hurtful things i will try not to put it to heart... I am not able to communicate with him cause i dun want to open my heart to him. And when i do, he will say some hurtful thing again. I can't dislike him, so i will only dislike myself more . Now I am like a buckeet. My tears can't stop falling down my cheeks. I am not a robot. I also have feelings. I told myself I must be strong and tried to stop them from coming out but they wun stop. Dun worry about me, . These are all experiences to make me stronger. I will just continue studying. Sorry I am not the person you want me to be. Sorry for being me...

Today was my A and E and oncology exam. But I dun really want to talk about it... I can only say I can wish for the best. And just look forward. I believe I am not the only person that finds its hard... anyways i have nothing to say... Haiz. (I am usually not very affected by exams, but for me to be...means something)



After that went out for a while b4 going back... I had a nice sleep. In the evening went for a jog around bedok reservoir. I guess sometimes exercising is a good way of stress relief. Summore some one told me I have put on weight... haha... (I admit it lah... cause recently i dun feel as healthy). I am very happy I did so. I started running with a heavy heart but after that i stopped cause i did not know i was feeling so upset for since it was over. So i just told myself i will throw all my troubles into the water. I wanted to shout but then a bit paiseh, since there were quite a few ppl there... I wun look behind, I will just look in front and do what i need to do in the time i am given with the best ability. The outcome is not for me to control. So I continued running with a lighter heart and body. I can do it!!! I wun let this little setback pull me down... Even if i fail (touch wood) . I will still be strong. Guess thats life... we fall, but must pull ourself up. Sometimes ppl can help you , but ultimately its a test for yourself. I think this applies to everyone.



After that i was very kpo and decided to loiter into TP... Its really nicer than NYP in my opinion. I wanted to loiter in somemore but then it started raining so i ran back... so half of bedok reservoir, I ran for my life to avoid getting wet. But in the end I still did... getting wet is better than running in the dark... haha (look on brighter side). But it was really a nice run. To me its a run to remember... haha!! Ok now I am ready to hit my books again...

Today I had my first paper which was on mental health... It was quite a tricky paper and i really dunno if I can make it.. Hopefully my ICA project can pull up the grades for this one... now just worried about my A and E and cancer nursing. But I am sure God will make a way. Tomorrow I am going to Alina house to study... hOPe it will be productive... 2 brains are better than one.



Today when i was on my way back home I suddenly bumped into an old school mate of mine at bedok interchange. She was my GB mate and guess what , she is still very committed and goes back, not like me... I just remember those times we took part in drill competition and spent many afternoons praticing our drill... and i became so tanned until my skin could peel. She asked me whether I am interested to go for the 10th Gb anniversary... Woah man... I remember during sec. 2 we put up a concert for the 5th anniversary... I used to sing in the choir for the event.. it was quite an unforgettable experience. Time really flies man. soon you will see me with wrinkles.. Well I might go back... See whether I am free on that day. I will get my whole outcaste gang of GB to go with me... haha!!!

"I can do all things through Christ that strengthens me." Philipians 4:13

Dun give up, all of you in life.. You may succeed with another Blow. may God Bless you with a clear mind and good health and a happy heart! Muacks!